Detective and mystery stories; English fiction -- 19th century
He paused,—and Delicia spoke softly and with great gentleness, moved by
the strength of her own grief to compassionate his, whatever it might
be.
‘Indeed I would, Mr Valdis,’ she said earnestly. ‘I am quite sure you
have a strong and steadfast nature, and that with you it would be a case
of “once love, love always.”’
He met her eyes fully.
‘Thank you,’ he said in low accents; ‘I am glad you do me that justice.
It moves me to make full confession, and to tell you what I thought
would never be told. Others, I fear, have guessed my secret, but
you—you have never seen it, never guessed it. You are not vain enough
to realise your own charm; you live like an angel in a land of divine
dreams, and so you have never known that I—I—’
But she suddenly started away from him, her eyes filling with tears, her
hands thrust out to keep him back from her.
‘No, no,’ she cried, ‘you must not say it; you must not!’
‘Nay, I must and will,’ said Valdis, now losing a little of his hard
self-control, for he sprang to her side and seized her two hands in his.
‘You have guessed it at last, then? That I love you, Delicia! Love you
with all my soul, with every breath of my being, every beat of my heart!
I have tried to hide it from you; I have battled against my own passion,
and the fight has been hard; but when you say—oh, God! with what
piteousness in your dear voice—that without love life is valueless, you
break down my strength; you make me helpless in your hands, and you
unman me! You need not be afraid of me, nor indignant, for I know all
you would say. You will never love me; your whole heart was given to
one man, your husband; he has flung away the precious gift as though it
were naught, and it is broken, dear, quite broken! I know that even
better than you do. Such a nature as yours can never love twice. And I
know, too, that your proud, pure soul resents my love as an outrage
because you are married, though your marriage itself has been one
continual outrage. But you tempt me to speak; I cannot bear to hear the
grief in your voice when you speak of life without love. I want you to
know that there is one man on earth who worships you; who would come
from the ends of the earth to serve you; who will consecrate his days to
you, and who will die blessing your name! No, there shall be no time or
space for reproaches, for, sweet woman as you are, I know the force of
your indignation; I am going away at once, and you need never think of
me again. See, I kiss your hands and ask your forgiveness for my
roughness, my presumption. I have no right to speak as I have done, I
know—but you will have pity—’
He stopped as she gently withdrew her hands from his clasp and gazed at
him with sad, wet eyes. There was no anger in her face, only a profound
despair.
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