He neither sought distraction in evil and dissipated courses, nor death
by any of those foolhardy and rash exploits which have far too often
been glorified as "courage" or "pluck."
He was graver, more reticent, more studious than of yore, and he found
his reward, though few even of his intimate associates were aware of his
abnormal gifts, or his superior knowledge. Such was the man who, still
in the prime of life's best years, still with thirst unslaked for that
one divine draught of love which, once at least, is offered to mortal
lips, stood now in the soft December moonlight by the side of the woman
he had worshipped for long in secret and in pain, and cried aloud in
triumph to his heart, "At last happiness is mine!"
His whole consciousness was pervaded with a sense of ecstasy that seemed
to make all past pain and regret sink into utter insignificance. To
stand there by her side, to drink in that wonderful beauty of face and
form, was a joy that brought absolute forgetfulness of everything
outside and apart from its new and magical acquisition. The world was
forgotten. Even the possibility of a formal and imperative ceremonial
by which his newly-won treasure must be secured to himself at last,
barely flashed across his consciousness. He did not trouble himself to
put it into words. He listened to the brief disjointed fragments of her
speech--fragments which gave a dim picture of her life in these empty
years of division. Now and then he spoke of himself. She listened.
Once she turned to him with an impulse of tenderness strange in one so
cold and self-possessed.
"Ah!" she cried, softly, "I have made you suffer... but it was not my
will... Oh, always believe that... And I will give you compensation.--
I can promise it--now."
They seemed to him the sweetest words that ever fell from mortal lips,
and no less sweet--though infinitely puzzling--was that exquisite
humility with which she crowned the wonder of her self-surrender. Yet
even as he heard his brain grew bewildered--his senses seemed to reel.
Strange thoughts and shapes seemed to hover around him, and all the
soft, dim space of night appeared a black and peopled horror. For a
moment he felt that consciousness was forsaking him... that the shock of
this unexpected joy was beyond his strength to bear. Dizzy and sick he
swayed suddenly forwards.--A cool hand touched his brow--a voice reached
his ear. With a mighty effort he shook off the paralysing weakness, and
sank down by the side of his enchantress.
"Is it a dream?" he murmured, vaguely; "shall I wake to-morrow and know
you have mocked me again?"
"Nay, my beloved," she whispered; "this--is no dream... Never again
shall I mock you. I am but a woman now who loves. Earth holds no
weaker thing."
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