"Besides," thought he, judging his friend by himself, "he only acts thus
from pride and ostentation. What am I at his house, but a living witness
of his generosity and devotion? He seems to live for me--it's Tremorel
here and Tremorel there! He triumphs over my misfortunes, and makes his
conduct a glory and title to the public admiration."
He could not forgive his friend for being so rich, so happy, so highly
respected, for having known how to regulate his life, while he had
exhausted his own fortune at thirty. And should he not seize so good an
opportunity to avenge himself for the favors which overwhelmed him?
"Have I run after his wife?" said he to himself, trying to impose
silence on his conscience. "She comes to me of her own will, herself,
without the least temptation from me. I should be a fool if I repelled
her."
Conceit has irresistible arguments. Hector, when he entered the house,
had made up his mind. He did not fly. Yet he had the excuse neither of
passion nor of temptation; he did not love her, and his infamy was
deliberate, coldly premeditated. Between her and him a chain more solid
than mutual attraction was riveted; their common hatred of Sauvresy.
They owed too much to him. His hand had held both from degradation.
The first hours of their mutual understanding were spent in angry words,
rather than the cooings of love. They perceived too clearly the disgrace
of their conduct not to try to reassure each other against their
remorse. They tried to prove to each other that Sauvresy was ridiculous
and odious; as if they were absolved by his deficiencies, if
deficiencies he had. If indeed trustfulness is foolishness, Sauvresy was
indeed a fool, because he could be deceived under his own eyes, in his
own house, because he had perfect faith in his wife and his friend. He
suspected nothing, and every day he rejoiced that he had been able to
keep Tremorel by him. He often repeated to his wife:
"I am too happy."
Bertha employed all her art to encourage these joyous illusions. She who
had before been so capricious, so nervous, wilful, became little by
little submissive to the degree of an angelic softness. The future of
her love depended on her husband, and she spared no pains to prevent the
slightest suspicion from ruffling his calm confidence. Such was their
prudence that no one in the house suspected their state. And yet Bertha
was not happy. Her love did not yield her the joys she had expected. She
hoped to be transported to the clouds, and she remained on the earth,
hampered by all the miserable ties of a life of lies and deceit.
Perhaps she perceived that she was Hector's revenge on her husband, and
that he only loved in her the dishonored wife of an envied friend. And
to crown all, she was jealous. For several months she tried to persuade
Tremorel to break with Jenny. He always had the same reply, which,
though it might be prudent, was irritating.
"Jenny is our security--you must think of that."
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