A small, fine, chilly rain had succeeded the morning fog; but Sauvresy
did not perceive it. He went across the fields with his head bare,
wandering at hazard, without aim or discretion. He talked aloud as he
went, stopping ever and anon, then resuming his course. The peasants who
met him--they all knew him--turned to look at him after having saluted
him, asking themselves whether the master of Valfeuillu had not gone
mad. Unhappily he was not mad. Overwhelmed by an unheard-of,
unlooked-for catastrophe, his brain had been for a moment paralyzed. But
one by one he collected his scattered ideas and acquired the faculty of
thinking and of suffering. Each one of his reflections increased his
mortal anguish. Yes, Bertha and Hector had deceived, had dishonored him.
She, beloved to idolatry; he, his best and oldest friend, a wretch that
he had snatched from misery, who owed him everything. And it was in his
house, under his own roof, that this infamy had taken place. They had
taken advantage of his noble trust, had made a dupe of him. The
frightful discovery not only embittered the future, but also the past.
He longed to blot out of his life these years passed with Bertha, with
whom, but the night before, he had recalled these "happiest years of his
life." The memory of his former happiness filled his soul with disgust.
But how had this been done? When? How was it he had seen nothing of it?
And now things came into his mind which should have warned him had he
not been blind. He recalled certain looks of Bertha, certain tones of
voice, which were an avowal. At times, he tried to doubt. There are
misfortunes so great that to be believed there must be more than
evidence.
"It is not possible!" muttered he.
Seating himself upon a prostrate tree in the midst of Mauprevoir forest,
he studied the fatal letter for the tenth time within four hours.
"It proves all," said he, "and it proves nothing."
And he read once more.
"Do not go to-morrow to Petit-Bourg--"
Well, had he not again and again, in his idiotic confidence, said to
Hector:
"I shall be away to-morrow, stay here and keep Bertha company."
This sentence, then, had no positive signification. But why add:
"Or rather, return before breakfast."
This was what betrayed fear, that is, the fault. To go away and return
again anon, was to be cautious, to avoid suspicion. Then, why "he,"
instead of, "Clement?" This word was striking. "He"--that is, the dear
one, or else, the master that one hates. There is no medium--'tis the
husband, or the lover. "He," is never an indifferent person. A husband
is lost when his wife, in speaking of him, says, "He."
But when had Bertha written these few lines? Doubtless some evening
after they had retired to their room. He had said to her, "I'm going
to-morrow to Melun," and then she had hastily scratched off this note
and given it, in a book, to Hector.
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