The Nest Builder: A NovelHale, Beatrice Forbes-Robertson
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The Nest Builder: A Novel
Hale, Beatrice Forbes-Robertson
Marriage -- Fiction
“I see,” said Stefan slowly, in a voice low and almost harsh. Startled,
she looked at him. His face was knotted in a white mask; it was like the
face of some creature upon which an iron door has been shut. “Stefan,”
she exclaimed, “what--?”
“Wait a minute,” he said, still slowly. “I suppose it's time we talked
this thing out. I've been a fool, and judged, like a fool, by myself.
It's time we knew each other, Mary. All that you have said is horrible
to me--it's like a trap.” She gave an exclamation. “Wait, let me do
something I've never done, let me _think_ about it.” He was silent, his
face still a hard, knotted mask. Mary waited, her heart trembling.
“You, Mary, told me something about families in England who live as you
describe--you said your mother belonged to one of them. I remember that
now.” He nodded shortly, as if conceding her a point. “My father was a
New Englander. He was narrow and self-righteous, and I hated him, but
he came of people who had faced a hundred forms of death to live
primitively, in a strange land.”
“I'm willing to live in a strange country, Stefan,” she almost cried to
him.
“Don't, Mary--I'm still trying to understand. I'm not my father's son,
I'm my mother's. I don't know what she was, but she was beautiful and
passionate--she came of a mixed race, she may have had gipsy blood--I
don't know--but I do know she had genius. She loved only color and
movement. Mary--” he looked straight at her for the first time, his eyes
were tortured--“I loved you because you were beautiful and free. When
your child bound you, and you began to collect so many things and people
about you, I loved you less. I met some one else who had the beauty of
color and movement, and I almost loved her. She told me the name Berber
wasn't her own, that she had taken it because it belonged to a tribe
of wanderers--Arabs. I almost loved her for that alone. But, Mary, you
still held me. I was faithful to you because of your beauty and the
love that had been between us. Then you rose from your petty little
surroundings”--he cast a look of contempt at the pretty furnishings of
the room--“I saw you like a storm-spirit, I saw you moving among other
women like a goddess, adored of men. I felt your beautiful body yield to
me in the joy of wild movement, in the rhythm of the dance. You were my
bride, alive, gloriously free--once more, you were the Desired. I loved
you, Mary.” He rose and put his hands on her shoulders. Her face was as
white as his now. His hands dropped, he almost leapt away from her, the
muscles of his face writhed. “My God, Mary, I've never wanted to _think_
about you, only to feel and see you! Now I must think. This--this
existence that you have described! Is that all you ask of life? Are you
sure?”
“What more could one ask!” she uttered, dazed.
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