The Nest Builder: A NovelHale, Beatrice Forbes-Robertson
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The Nest Builder: A Novel
Hale, Beatrice Forbes-Robertson
Marriage -- Fiction
For a month Stefan brooded. He hung about the house, dabbled at a little
work, and returned, all without signs of life or interest. He was kind
to Mary, more considerate than he used to be, but she would have given
all his inanimate, painstaking politeness for an hour of his old, gay
thoughtlessness. They had reached the stage of marriage in which, all
being explained and understood, there seems nothing to hope for. Alone
together they were silent, for there was nothing to say. Each condoned
but could not comfort the other. Stefan felt that his marriage had been
a mistake, that he, a living thing, had tied about his neck a dead mass
of institutions, customs and obligations which would slowly crush his
life out. “I am twenty-seven,” he said to himself, “and my life is
over.” He did not blame Mary, but himself.
She, on the other hand, felt she had married a man outside the pale of
ordinary humanity, and that though she still loved him, she could no
longer expect happiness through him. “I am twenty-five,” she thought,
“and my personal life is over. I can be happy now only in my children.”
As those were assured her, she never thought of regretting her marriage,
but only deplored the loss of her dream. Nor did she judge Stefan. She
understood the wild risk she had run in marrying a man of whom she knew
nothing. “He is as he is,” she thought; “neither of us is to blame.”
Lonely and grieved, she turned for companionship to her writing, and
began a series of fairy tales which she had long planned for very
young children. The first instalment of her serial was out, charmingly
illustrated; she had felt rather proud on seeing her name, for the first
time, on the cover of a magazine. She engaged a young girl from the
village to take Elliston for his daily outings, and settled down to a
routine of work, small social relaxations, and morning and evening care
of the baby. The daily facts of life were pleasant to Mary; if some hurt
or disappointed, her balanced nature swung readily to assuage itself
with others. She honestly believed she felt more deeply than her
husband, and perhaps she did, but she was not of the kind whom life
can break. Stefan might dash himself to exhaustion against a rock round
which Mary would find a smooth channel.
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