English fiction -- 19th century; London (England) -- Fiction; Poor -- Fiction; Poverty -- Fiction
Another day, and no further news from Sam. The next morning, instead of
going to work (the loss of wages was most serious, but it couldn’t be
helped), Jane privately betook herself to Sam’s house of business. Mrs.
Byass was ill; would they let her know Mr. Byass’s address, that he
might immediately be communicated with? The information was readily
supplied; Mr. Byass was no farther away, at present, than St. Albans.
Forth into the street again, and in search of a policeman. ‘Will you
please to tell me what station I have to go to for St. Albans?’ Why,
Moorgate Street would do; only a few minutes’ walk away. On she
hastened. ‘What is the cost of a return ticket to St. Albans, please?’
Three-and-sevenpence. Back into the street again; she must now look for
a certain sign, indicating a certain place of business. With some
little trouble it is found; she enters a dark passage, and comes before
a counter, upon which she lays—a watch, her grandfather’s old watch.
‘How much?’ ‘Four shillings, please.’ She deposits a halfpenny, and
receives four shillings, together with a ticket. Now for St. Albans.
Sam! Sam! Ay, well might he turn red and stutter and look generally
foolish when that quiet little girl stood before him in his
‘stock-room’ at the hotel. Her words were as quiet as her look. ‘I’ll
write her a letter,’ he cries. ‘Stop; you shall take it back. I can’t
give up the job at once, but you may tell her I’m up to no harm.
Where’s the pen? Where’s the cursed ink?’ And she takes the letter.
‘Why, you’ve lost a day’s work, Jane! She gave you the money for the
journey, I suppose?’
‘Yes, yes, of course.’
‘Tell her she’s not to make a fool of herself in future.’
‘No, I shan’t say that, Mr. Byass. But I’m half-tempted to say it to
someone else!’
It was the old, happy smile, come back for a moment; the voice that had
often made peace so merrily. The return journey seemed short, and with
glad heart-beating she hastened from the City to Hanover Street.
Well, well; of course it would all begin over again; Jane herself knew
it. But is not all life a struggle onward from compromise to
compromise, until the day of final pacification?
Through that winter she lived with a strange secret in her mind, a
secret which was the source of singularly varied feelings—of
astonishment, of pain, of encouragement, of apprehension, of grief. To
no one could she speak of it; no one could divine its existence—no one
save the person to whom she owed this surprising novelty in her
experience. She would have given much to be rid of it; and yet, again,
might she not legitimately accept that pleasure which at times came of
the thought?—the thought that, as a woman, her qualities were of some
account in the world.
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