Phil realised that some one was keeping him from slipping and that he
would slip and keep on slipping to the very bottom of things if left to
himself. Little hammers were beating on his brain. Their tat-tat kept
him from any continuity of thought. As soon as he had an idea they
crushed it while it was only fluttering in vagueness. Indeed, they
moved about over his brain on the lookout to crush any conscious grasp
of anything. He would outwit them; he would know what all this was
about. Straining his eyelids open--they were as heavy as steel
doors--there was only a black curtain in front of his eyes as the
reward of the effort. This must mean--but the hammers would not let
him find out what it meant. He tried to listen and there was a void
beaten by noiseless hammers which were striking into pulp--his brain.
He was afraid of something; something ghastly indefinable.
Again he was slipping. He would just let himself slip. That was best.
When you slipped the hammer-blows became muffled. They did not hurt so
much; only when you slipped you had to cough to keep back the trickling
thing. The strong arm of the hospital corps man straightened him up.
Apparently some one did not want him to slip. This must be the man who
ran the hammers and wanted to keep them busy--those noiseless,
merciless hammers in the black night.
"It's lucky just to get it in the leg," said one of the two sitting
cases opposite, with a red spot on a white wrapping showing through his
slit trousers' leg.
"Bang in the middle of the head's better than that," said the other,
who had his arm in a sling.
"God, yes!"
Up and down hill the ambulance, its green curtains drawn on its
secrets, ran smoothly on past the long trains of motor-trucks that fed
the army, past well-muscled, comely, eager, whistling, and singing
youth on the march, through villages and towns, through the orderly
world of health and action to that quiet world where the nurses smiled,
inside the long, low buildings connected by gravelled paths.
Phil knew that he had arrived because he had been lifted down from
somewhere onto something, which was a signal for the hammers to do a
snaredrum dance which made him unconscious for a moment. The hammers
did not like him to be unconscious. Having beaten him out of
consciousness, they beat him back to it with a different kind of
tattoo. Then, he was being carried along in a sort of cradle.
"Keep his head up!" said the little ticket which came with all who were
sent to the human repair shop.
"Very particular about that!" insisted the tired medical corps man, who
had held Phil up for the whole journey.
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