The old vicarage : $b A novelHubback, Mrs. (Catherine-Anne Austen)
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The old vicarage : $b A novel
Hubback, Mrs. (Catherine-Anne Austen)
English fiction -- 19th century
“In what way?” questioned he, curious to learn the feelings of a girl
like Hilary, although not in the least entering into them.
“I was thinking,” replied she, “that all words spoken, and thoughts
unuttered, too, exist somewhere――are recorded――not passed away into
empty air――not perished like the flowers which fall to decay.”
“Well, what then?” said he, not discovering any connection in the
ideas.
“How many thousand times have those words been repeated here, in this
church-yard, praying that the number of the elect may shortly be
accomplished; and yet how little we realize our own meaning, or live
in accordance with the words we use.”
“You do not mean to say that we ought to be glad when our friends
die?” inquired he.
“Partings for an indefinite time must always be painful, and those
left behind to sorrow and struggle――to combat the waves of this
troublesome world――must feel desolation and grief; but when we look at
a quiet grave like this, where all is so calm and still, and think of
the spirit away in some unknown but happy place, we ought not to feel
gloom. Gloom might rest on the graves of those who call it ‘Ultima
Domus’――but for us, who daily repeat our belief in ‘the resurrection
of the dead,’ gloom ought to be banished with despair.”
“That is a very beautiful idea,” said he, looking with admiration at
her elevated expression of countenance.
“It should be more than an idea――it should be a guiding principle; I
mean that our business here is so to live that we may think of lying
down there without a shudder. Do you know, I have often wondered what
I shall feel――with what kind of emotions I shall look down――when they
lay _me_ there――or rather what once was myself.”
He looked at her with amazement. “Do you suppose you will be conscious
at all?――but do not talk of it; _I_ can not think of you in such a
connection without more than a shudder. Did you train these creepers
so gracefully round the church windows?”
“Partly; there have been other hands here besides mine, however; it
has been the work of affection――the result of the very feelings of
which I was speaking.”
“Which is your favorite?” inquired Mr. Huyton, determined to change
the subject.
“Of the shrubs?――that Virginian creeper, I believe.”
“Why, it has no blossoms, and is not even an evergreen,” replied he.
“I like it the better for that; it says the more to me.”
“What does it say?” replied he, smiling.
“The fading of its leaves speaks of sympathy with us, which I never
can fancy evergreens feel. And then they become more beautiful as they
decay, glowing with richer colors lent by the frost which is about to
strip them; just as those who have silently spent their strength in
aspiring heavenward like that plant, often show, when touched by
suffering, new and unexpected graces.”
“You are fanciful――but I like to hear your imaginations.”
“The Virginian creeper has another meaning to me,” pursued Hilary; “it
is an emblem of friendship, of which I am very fond.”
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