The old vicarage : $b A novelHubback, Mrs. (Catherine-Anne Austen)
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The old vicarage : $b A novel
Hubback, Mrs. (Catherine-Anne Austen)
English fiction -- 19th century
“That is not what I mean; and indeed, I am sure you will not press
your request, when I tell you that after the motive you assigned, it
would be unpleasant to me to grant it.”
“I would not do what is unpleasant to you, not for the hundredth part
of a minute; no, not if it were to procure me the greatest pleasure in
the world. Say no more about these foolish cloaks, I entreat you.”
“And tell my father the reason?” said Hilary, blushing very deeply.
“That is not necessary, surely,” replied he, gravely; “there is no
occasion to assign any other reason; make the business over to your
school-mistress; I dare say she will be competent enough. But remember
the _motive_ is the same; I can not pretend to retract that; and
whether you accept of it as a proof of devotion to you or not, there
is no other plea to put it on.”
Hilary was silent, and looked down.
“You did not suppose I _could_ change?” continued he; “you are unjust
alike to my constancy and your perfections. That indeed is the cause
of my constancy; there is no merit in loving you unchangeably――nobody
could help it.”
“Mr. Huyton, I believe I was wrong,” replied Hilary, with very crimson
cheeks, and a rather unsteady voice; “when I promised to allow you to
remain――to go on the same as ever――I can not――it is painful,
embarrassing, most distressing to me. Am I asking too much in asking
you to leave us for a time?――perhaps, too, absence might be good for
you, might teach you how much you over-rate me; but, at least, it
would do _me_ good. After a time, I might learn to meet you
unembarrassed, and look on you as I used to do: I can not now; I have
tried in vain――your presence distresses, frightens me――makes me
uncomfortable and unhappy.”
Hilary ended her sentence in very great trepidation, and finally burst
into tears, which both frightened and perplexed Mr. Huyton.
“Dear Miss Duncan, don’t; dearest, sweetest Hilary; my beloved!――do
not make yourself unhappy; I will not stay another day to distress
you. Though to leave you is exile and banishment, and protracted pain,
I will go; only don’t cry. I would not cause you a tear if I could
help it. I will make any sacrifice――there now, dry your eyes, take
this glass of water! are you better? trust me, your happiness is
dearer than my own. I will do any thing you ask.”
Hilary dried her eyes, and quieted herself with an effort; then
looking up, she said, “I beg your pardon for being so foolish;
but――did I understand you rightly?――you said you would leave us!”
“I did, and I will.”
“Thank you. You will tell my father, will you not?”
“I will explain all that is necessary. Compose yourself, and trust
me.”
She rose hastily, and left the room; dropping, as she did so, a
carnation she had worn in her bosom, of which he took possession with
a lover’s enthusiasm. He did not, however, go away immediately; he
could not, without saying good-by to her; but he sat down, and formed
his plan for the future.
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