Domestic fiction; Sisters -- Fiction; Women -- England -- Fiction
She perceived that he was ready for one of their periodical tempestuous
quarrels. But that day she felt too tired and unwell to quarrel. His
warning against a repetition of 'fuss' had reference to the gastric
dizziness from which she had been suffering for two years. It would
take her usually after a meal. She did not swoon, but her head swam and
she could not stand. She would sink down wherever she happened to be,
and, her face alarmingly white, murmur faintly: "My salts." Within five
minutes the attack had gone and left no trace. She had been through one
just after lunch. He resented this affection. He detested being
compelled to hand the smelling-bottle to her, and he would have avoided
doing so if her pallor did not always alarm him. Nothing but this
pallor convinced him that the attacks were not a deep ruse to impress
him. His attitude invariably implied that she could cure the malady if
she chose, but that through obstinacy she did not choose.
"Are you going to have the decency to answer my question, or aren't
you?"
"What question?" Her vibrating voice was low and restrained.
"Will you write to your people?"
"For money?"
The sarcasm of her tone was diabolic. She could not have kept the
sarcasm out of her tone; she did not attempt to keep it out. She cared
little if it whipped him to fury. Did he imagine, seriously, that she
would be capable of going on her knees to her family? She? Was he
unaware that his wife was the proudest and the most obstinate woman on
earth; that all her behaviour to him was the expression of her pride
and her obstinacy? Ill and weak though she felt, she marshalled
together all the forces of her character to defend her resolve never,
never to eat the bread of humiliation. She was absolutely determined to
be dead to her family. Certainly, one December, several years
previously, she had seen English Christmas cards in an English shop in
the Rue de Rivoli, and in a sudden gush of tenderness towards
Constance, she had despatched a coloured greeting to Constance and her
mother. And having initiated the custom, she had continued it. That was
not like asking a kindness; it was bestowing a kindness. But except for
the annual card, she was dead to St. Luke's Square. She was one of
those daughters who disappear and are not discussed in the family
circle. The thought of her immense foolishness, the little tender
thoughts of Constance, some flitting souvenir, full of unwilling
admiration, of a regal gesture of her mother,--these things only
steeled her against any sort of resurrection after death.
And he was urging her to write home for money! Why, she would not even
have paid a visit in splendour to St. Luke's Square. Never should they
know what she had suffered! And especially her Aunt Harriet, from whom
she had stolen!
"Will you write to your people?" he demanded yet again, emphasizing and
separating each word.
"No," she said shortly, with terrible disdain.
"Why not?"
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