Domestic fiction; Sisters -- Fiction; Women -- England -- Fiction
Sophia lay awake one night in the room lately quitted by Carlier. That
silent negation of individuality had come and gone, and left scarcely
any record of himself either in his room or in the memories of those
who had surrounded his existence in the house. Sophia had decided to
descend from the sixth floor, partly because the temptation of a large
room, after months in a cubicle, was rather strong; but more because of
late she had been obliged to barricade the door of the cubicle with a
chest of drawers, owing to the propensities of a new tenant of the
sixth floor. It was useless to complain to the concierge; the sole
effective argument was the chest of drawers, and even that was frailer
than Sophia could have wished. Hence, finally, her retreat.
She heard the front-door of the flat open; then it was shut with
nervous violence. The resonance of its closing would have certainly
wakened less accomplished sleepers than M. Niepce and his friend, whose
snores continued with undisturbed regularity. After a pause of
shuffling, a match was struck, and feet crept across the corridor with
the most exaggerated precautions against noise. There followed the
unintentional bang of another door. It was decidedly the entry of a man
without the slightest natural aptitude for furtive irruptions. The
clock in M. Niepce's room, which the grocer had persuaded to exact
time-keeping, chimed three with its delicate ting.
For several days past Chirac had been mysteriously engaged very late at
the bureaux of the Debats. No one knew the nature of his employment; he
said nothing, except to inform Sophia that he would continue to come
home about three o'clock until further notice. She had insisted on
leaving in his room the materials and apparatus for a light meal.
Naturally he had protested, with the irrational obstinacy of a
physically weak man who sticks to it that he can defy the laws of
nature. But he had protested in vain.
His general conduct since Christmas Day had frightened Sophia, in spite
of her tendency to stifle facile alarms at their birth. He had eaten
scarcely anything at all, and he went about with the face of a man
dying of a broken heart. The change in him was indeed tragic. And
instead of improving, he grew worse. "Have I done this?" Sophia asked
herself. "It is impossible that I should have done this! It is absurd
and ridiculous that he should behave so!" Her thoughts were employed
alternately in sympathizing with him and in despising him, in blaming
herself and in blaming him. When they spoke, they spoke awkwardly, as
though one or both of them had committed a shameful crime, which could
not even be mentioned. The atmosphere of the flat was tainted by the
horror. And Sophia could not offer him a bowl of soup without wondering
how he would look at her or avoid looking, and without carefully
arranging in advance her own gestures and speech. Existence was a
nightmare of self-consciousness.
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