The omnipotent self, a study in self-deception and self-cureBousfield, Paul
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The omnipotent self, a study in self-deception and self-cure
Bousfield, Paul
Mental healing; Psychoanalysis
(3) _To become a doctor._ “Concerning this,” she added, “I have
always liked studying Zoology, and microscopic work, and diseases.
Moreover, it is the only way in which one can make money in a really
interesting manner.” She then stated that she realised this to be
a double aim, and to consist, firstly, of the aim of earning a
livelihood, and secondly, of that of having an interesting occupation.
This aim was soon discovered to be phantastic, however, for she had to
admit that her financial position would not permit of the necessary
study, and that there was no prospect of any improvement in this. She
therefore realised that although she had had it at the back of her
mind for several months that somehow such an aim might be possible of
fulfilment, she now clearly saw that it was not. She at once removed
it from the list, and realised that neither regrets nor phantasy in
connection with it would be of any avail, and again, that she must bear
in mind possibilities and realities.
(4) _To become a masseuse._ She at once stated her thoughts on this
subject. “I have known one or two masseuses, who seem to make money,
and who are very happy. Moreover, it is an occupation that a lady can
take up.” She then discovered that this involved three aims: (a) to
make money, (b) to be happy, (c) to remain genteel. On the opposite
side, however, she added that she was not sufficiently physically
strong for the work, and was afraid she would soon tire of it, because
as an occupation itself, it did not appeal to her. This aim, also,
immediately disappeared from the list.
(5) _To become a psycho-analyst._ This, said she, was a very
interesting subject, and she thought she could do much good by means of
it. Moreover, she thought she would like psychology though she had not
studied it much as yet. “Moreover,” said she, “psycho-analysts probably
make a lot of money. And further, it would be very nice to sit at
home in an arm-chair to do one’s work, and to let other people do the
talking.” She at once recognised this latter idea to be a thoroughly
Narcissistic regression. And then she found that all the other ideas
contained multiple aims in themselves, each of which had to be thought
out and classified, and into the details of which I need not go. Except
to say that when she considered the matter from a practical point of
view, the difficulties of training, the time it would take, and more
especially the fact that she feared that psycho-analysis might not be
popular by the time she was ready, she determined that it was only a
phantasy aim, upon which she had been wasting phantasy thought, and she
ruled it out.
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