The Open Question: A Tale of Two TemperamentsRobins, Elizabeth
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The Open Question: A Tale of Two Temperaments
Robins, Elizabeth
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What is it? Where is it? Not always in the eyes or on
the lips, not always expressed in dress or even bearing--in no one thing
that one may lay a finger on and say, "I know him by this mark!" There
is no name for that elusive, eloquent, yet indelible sign life sets upon
the faces of the lost. Yet all men know it when they see it, and
instinctively turn away their eyes.
In the group that closed about Mary, some one was protesting about
something.
"Perhaps Jean Latreille was right," said a man Gano couldn't see.
"Of course he was. _You_ need not to blame him."
Some one was speaking with a strong French accent.
"Well, well," said the woman with the gray hair. "I don't feel sure it
ought to be encouraged _openly_."
"Zen, ought you not to belong to zis club?"
The woman turned up an anxious face.
"I've sent the girls away, Mrs. Pitman," said Mary, gently. "I think
those of us that are left here, even the new members, have borne so much
that they are able to bear the truth." There was a rustle and a noise of
sitting down. "M. Pernet is right, I think, although I'm sorry Jean
should have deserted his wife and child. It would have been manlier not
to buy his liberty at the price of others' suffering."
"That's what _I_ say."
The gray-haired woman nodded at some one out of sight.
"But who can decide the problems of another soul?" Mary Burne's white
face grew weary. "We have enough with our own."
"Parfaitement."
"You may be sure," she went on, nodding gravely at her dingy audience,
"a young man in vigorous health doesn't wrench himself out of the world
without good cause. It's grown too common to be any longer a
distinction"--she smiled bitterly--"and yet it's not common enough to be
any easier, or any less reviled." Her eyes travelled from one forlorn
face to the other with a kindling compassion. "But let us take courage,
friends; we who have done without bread can do without approval--except
of one kind." She paused an instant; a look of fanaticism leaped into
the white face. "No matter what we have done in the past, we will not
live, from this time on, without self-respect. Two or three of us have
talked a good deal here about our duties to each other. Let us think
to-night of the ultimate duty we owe ourselves. You know already how
some of us cannot find courage to live till we have first assured
ourselves of courage to die, if need be. I've told you, one or two of
you, that it was like that with me; that when hideous things drove me
away from home, things I'd borne for years, and should never have borne
a moment"--she flung up her head with swelling nostrils--"when my
awakening came, I said to myself, 'I'll go away and work; I'll go to
Paris; and if I can't live there decently, I shall die there.' All
through the long voyage I kept thinking that I was probably going, as
fast as the ship could carry me, towards my grave. When one has lived
days like that, life doesn't daunt one any more, nor death either."
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