In less than a week from the beginning the symptoms indicated a most
obstinate chronic gastritis. There was a perpetual sense of corrosion
at the pit of the stomach very like that which characterizes the fatal
operation of arsenic. There was less action of the liver than usually
indicates a salvable case, and no irritation of the lowest
intestines. _Pari passu_ with the gastritic suffering, the neuralgic
pain spread down the extremities from an apparent centre between the
kidneys, through the trunk, from another line near the left margin of
the liver, and through the whole medullary substance of the brain
itself. Although I was so unfortunate as not to be beside him during
this stage, I can still infallibly draw on my whole experience for
information regarding the intensity of this pain. _Tic-douloureux_
most nearly resembles it in character. Like that agonizing affection,
it has periods of exacerbation; unlike it, it has no intervals of
continuous repose. Like _tic-douloureux_, its sensation is a curiously
fluctuating one, as if pain had been _fluidized_ and poured in
trickling streams through the tubules of nerve tissue which are
affected by it; but, unlike that, it affects every tubule in the human
body--not a single diseased locality. Charles Reade chaffs the doctors
very wittily in "Hard Cash" on their _penchant_ for the word
"_hyperaesthesia,"_ but nothing else exactly defines that exaggeration
of nervous sensibility which I have invariably seen in opium-eaters.
Some of them were hurt by an abrupt slight touch, and cried out at the
jar of a heavy footstep like a patient with acute rheumatism. Some
developed sensitiveness with the progress of expurgating the poison,
until their very hair and nails felt sore, and the whole surface of
the skin suffered from cold air or water like the lips of a
wound. After all, utterly unable to convey an idea of the _kind_ of
suffering, I must content myself by repeating, of its extent, that no
prolonged pain of any kind known to science can equal it. The totality
of the experience is only conceivable by adding this physical torture
to a mental anguish which even the Oriental pencil of De Quincey has
but feebly painted; an anguish which slays the will, yet leaves the
soul conscious of its murder; which utterly blots out hope, and either
paralyzes the reasoning faculties which might suggest encouragements,
or deadens the emotional nature to them as thoroughly as if they were
not perceived; an anguish, which sometimes includes just, but always a
vast amount of _unjust_ self-reproach, winch brings every failure and
inconsistency, every misfortune or sin of a man's life as clearly
before his face as on the day he was first mortified or degraded by
it--before his face, not in one terrible dream, which is once for all
over with sunrise, but as haunting ghosts, made out by the feverish
eyes of the soul down to the minutest detail of ghastliness, and never
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