leaving the side of the rack on which he lies for a moment of dark or
day-light, till sleep, at the end of a month, first drops out of
heaven on his agony.
A third element in the suffering must briefly be mentioned. It
results directly from the others. It is that exhaustion of nervous
power which invariably ensues on protracted pain of mind or body. It
proceeds beyond reaction to collapse in a hopeless case; it stops this
side of that in a salvable one.
On reaching his room I found my friend bolstered upright in bed, with
a small two-legged crutch at hand to prop his head on when he became
weary of the perpendicular position. This had been his attitude for
fifty days. Whether from its impeding his circulation, the
distribution of his nervous currents, or both, the prostrate posture
invariably brought on cessation of the heart--and the sense of
intolerable strangling. His note told me he was dying of heart
disease, but, as I expected, I found that malady merely simulated by
nervous symptoms, and the trouble purely functional. His food was
arrow-root or sago, and beef-tea. Of the vegetable preparation he took
perhaps half a dozen table-spoonfuls daily; of the animal variable
quantities, averaging half a pint per diem. This, though small, was
far from the minimum of nutriment upon which life has been supported
through the most critical periods. Indeed, I have known three patients
tided over stages of disease otherwise desperately typhoid by
_beef-tea baths_, in which the proportion of _ozmazone_ was
just perceptible, and the sole absorbing agency was a faint activity
left in the pores of the skin. But these patients had suffered no
absolute disorganization. The practitioner had to encounter a swift
specific poison, not to make over tissues abnormally misconstructed by
its long insidious action. On examination I discovered facts which I
had often feared, but never before absolutely recognized, in my
friend's case. The stomach itself, in its most irreproducible tissue,
had undergone a partial but permanent disorganization. The substance
of the organ itself had been altered in a way for which science knows
no remedy.
Hereafter, then, it can only be rechanged by that ultimate
decomposition which men call death. Over the opium-eater's coffin at
least, thank God! a wife and a sister can stop weeping and say, "He's
free."
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