I called to my friend's bedside a consultation of three physicians and
the most nearly related survivor of his family. I laid the case
before them; assisted them to a full _prognosis_; and invited
their views. I spent two nights with my friend. I have said that
during the first month of trial he had not a moment of even partial
unconsciousness. Since that time there had been perhaps ten occasions
a day, when for a period from one minute in length to five, his poor,
pain-wrinkled forehead sank on his crutch, his eyes fell shut, and to
outsiders he seemed asleep. But that which appeared sleep was
internally to him only one stupendous succession of horrors which
confusedly succeeded each other for apparent eternities of being, and
ended with some nameless catastrophe of woe or wickedness, in a waking
more fearful than the state volcanically ruptured by it. During the
nights I sat by him these occasional relaxations, as I learned,
reached their maximum length, my familiar presence acting as a
sedative, but from each of them he woke bathed in perspiration from
sole to crown; shivering under alternate flushes of chill and fever;
mentally confused to a degree which for half an hour rendered every
object in the room unnatural and terrible to him; with a nervous jerk,
which threw him quite out of bed, although in his waking state two men
were requisite to move him; and with a cry of agony as loud as any
under amputation.
The result of our consultation was a unanimous agreement not to press
the case further. Physicians have no business to consider the
speculative question, whether death without opium is preferable to
life with it. They are called to keep people on the earth. We were
convinced that to deprive the patient longer of opium would be to kill
him. This we had no right to do without his consent. He did not
consent, and I gave him five grains of morphia [Footnote: To the
younger men of the profession rather than to the public generally I
need here to say that this dose is not as excessive as it would
naturally appear to be in the case of a man who had used no form of
opium for ninety days. When you have to resume the drug, go
cautiously. But you will generally find the amount of it required to
produce the sedative effects in any case which returns to opium, after
abandonment of a long habitation, _startlingly large_, and
_slow in its effects_.] between 8 and 12 o'clock on the morning
of the day I had to return here. He was obliged to eat a few mouthfuls
of sago before the alkaloid could act upon his nervous system. I need
only point out the significance of this indication. The shallower-lying
nervous fibres of the stomach had become definitely paralyzed, and
such _digestion_ as could be perfected under these circumstances
was the only method of getting the stimulant in contact with any
excitable nerve-substance. In other words, mere absorbent and
assimulative tissue was all of him which for the purpose of receiving
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