Summoning his entire array of vital forces, our patient leaps, and
smites his breast, kicks, whirls his arms, and little by little feels
his heart tick again. By the time a feeble and sickly but regular
pulse is re-established he has gone through enough agony to punish the
worst enemy, my dear Sir, that you or I ever had. The vague,
overpowering fear of death which during such an attack afflicts even
the man who by grace or nature is at all other times most exempt from
it is one of this period's most terrible symptoms. This passes with
the return of breath and circulation.
But the clammy sweat continues--pouring from every point of the
surface--saturating the garments next the skin as if they had been
dipped in a tub of water. Presently our patient begins to suffer an
intolerable thirst, and runs to the ice-pitcher to quench it. In
vain. He can not retain a mouthful. The instant it is swallowed it
seems to strike a trap and is rejected with one jerk. He seeks the
sedative which up to this hour has allayed his worst gastric
irritations. Now, if never before, opium in every form produces
nausea. Laudanum instantly follows the example of the water, and even
a dry dose of morphia, swallowed with no moisture but saliva, casts
itself back after agonizing retchings. To liquor his rebellious
stomach proves yet more intolerant--food is almost as irritating as
liquor. In a horror he discovers that even pounded ice will not stay
down--and he is parching like Dives. His anguish becomes nearly
suicidal as the fact stares him in the face that he has come to the
place where he can not take opium any more--though to be without it is
hell--that food, drink, medicine, are all denied him.
A merciful, death-like apathy ensues. He lies down, and with his brain
full of delirious visions, appalling, grotesque, meaningless,
beautiful, torturing by turns, still manages to catch an occasional
minute of unconsciousness. He hears his name called--tries to rise and
answer--but his voice faints in his throat and he falls back upon his
bed. Friends enter his bed-chamber--in an agony of alarm rouse
him--lift him to his feet--but he has not the strength of an infant,
and he falls again. In this condition he may continue for a day or
two, then sink into absolute coma, and die of nervous exhaustion, or
his constitution may rally as the effects of the last overdose pass
off, and the man, after a fortnight's utter prostration, come
gradually back to such a state of tolerable health and comfort as he
enjoyed before he overtaxed himself.
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