Grigori sat down in silence, and looked at Matrona's bared, round
shoulders. The samovar boiled up, and spurted drops of hot steam
around. Matrona also splashed the water about with her washing. In the
corridor outside, the attendants' footsteps could be heard hurrying
backwards and forwards, and Grigori tried to guess, from the sound of
the steps, who was passing. Suddenly it seemed to him as if Matrona's
shoulders were as cold and as damp with perspiration as was the body of
the little Tschischik, as he tossed about on his bed in the agony of
cholera cramps.
Grigori shuddered, and said in a low voice--
"Senka is dead...."
"Dead!... Senka dead? God rest his soul!" exclaimed Matrona piously,
scarcely pausing in her noisy ablutions, and spluttering the soapsuds
from mouth and nose.
"I feel sorry for the poor child," said Grigori in a sad voice.
"But he was a mischievous lad, though," Matrona interjected.
"Well, leave him in peace now he is dead and gone! It's not our
business what he was when alive.... I am truly sorry he is dead! He was
such a quick, bright boy! The accordion ... hm! He was indeed a sharp
lad! Sometimes the thought used to cross my mind that I should like to
have him to teach,--not exactly as an apprentice. He was an orphan, he
might have got attached to us, and have taken the place of a son.... I
fear we shall never have children!... I don't understand why. Such a
strong, hearty woman as you are, and yet you bear no children.... You
had one, and there was an end of it!... Ah! if we only had a couple
of little squallers, I believe our life would not be so tedious.... As
things are, I work and work, and what is the end of it all? Just to
provide daily bread for you and me!... And why do we need daily bread?
So that we may be able to work.... And so life goes round in a circle
without sense or meaning.... If we only had children they would change
our life entirely ... yes, entirely..."
All this was said in a fretful, dissatisfied tone of voice, his head
sunk on his breast Matrona stood listening to all he had to say; but
growing gradually paler and paler.
"I am strong and healthy; so are you," continued Grigori; "and yet we
have no children. What is the reason?... I think and think about it
till I get quite melancholy, and take to drinking in sheer desperation!"
"What you are saying is not true!" said Matrona in a firm loud voice.
"You are not speaking the truth! Never dare to repeat to me what you
have just said!... If you take to drink, it is only your own dissipated
habits that prevent your keeping away from it My not having children
has nothing to do with it! That idea is false, Grigori!"
Grigori was stunned by her words. He rose and leaned against the back
of his chair, watching his wife, and scarcely recognizing her. Never
before had he seen her in such a rage; looking at him with so much
pitiless anger in her eyes; never before had she spoke with such fierce
strength.
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