"You have wounded my soul, Grischka!... Your sin and your guilt towards
me are great.... I bore everything and kept silence.... Why was that?
Because I loved you ... and I still love you, but I will not bear these
reproaches from you ... it's beyond my strength to do so.... Though you
are the husband whom Heaven has given me, I curse you for those words
of yours!"
"Silence!" roared Grigori, showing his teeth.
"Halloa! What's all this row about? Have you forgotten where you
are?... We can have no squabbles here!"
A mist seemed to rise before Grischka's eyes. He did not notice who was
standing in the doorway, speaking in these full bass tones, but pushing
the intruder aside, rushed past him into the open air. Matrona stood
for a moment in the middle of the room, as if struck blind and dumb,
then stumbled with outstretched hands towards her bed and threw herself
down on it, sobbing aloud.
It was already growing dark. The silvery rays of the moon, piercing
the torn edges of the clouds, fell across the floor, throwing the
rest of the room into blue shadow. By and by a thick drizzling rain
began to beat against the window-panes, and run down the walls of the
Infirmary--sounding like a herald of the approaching autumn with its
damp, reeking, darkening days. The pendulum of the clock, with its
monotonous tick-tick, marked the passing of the minutes. The drops of
rain pattered ceaselessly against the window-panes. Hour after hour
passed, and still the rain continued to fall On her bed the woman lay
motionless, staring with wide-open feverish eyes at the ceiling. Her
face was dark and careworn, her teeth were firmly clenched, and her
cheek-bones seemed to stand out prominently; in her eyes there was
an expression of sadness and of painful expectation. Still the rain
continued to beat against the walls and the windows. It sounded like
some one whispering in a monotonous but persuasive voice, trying to
bring conviction; without possessing the power to do this rapidly and
with telling arguments; and who was therefore attempting to obtain
his object by this painful, tedious droning, entirely wanting in the
enthusiasm of real belief.
The grey twilight of a rainy dawn tinged the sky with the colour of
steel which has lost its polish. Sleep had not yet visited Matrona's
eyes. Ever through the monotonous drip, drip of the rain she seemed to
hear the ominously repeated question--
"What will happen next? What will happen next?"
This question seemed to press in on her soul with irresistible force,
and resounded like a dull pain through her brain.
"What will happen next?"
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