Then from within came the melody of her voice: "Who is it?"
"It is I," he answered, and straightened himself. It seemed odd to him
she did not open the door at once. "I want a word with you," he added,
after a pause. But still the door was locked.
"Justine," he called again, "do you not hear me? I want to speak to
you."
Then through the slender woodwork at his side a whisper filtered, the
dumb voice of one whom madness may have in charge.
"It is not to speak you come, it is to kill."
"Justine!" he cried. All the agony of his life he distilled into her
name, "Justine!"
"You killed your child before, you shall not kill another now."
VI.
"City Hall!"
The brakemen were shouting the station through the emptiness of the
"Elevated."
In the car in which Mistrial sat a drunken sailor lolled, and a pretty
girl of the Sixth Avenue type was eating a confection. Above her, on a
panel opposite, the advertisement of a cough remedy shone in blue;
beyond was a particolored notice of tennis blazers: and, between them, a
text from Mark, in black letters, jumped out from a background of white:
"What shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose
his own soul?"
During the journey from his home Mistrial had contemplated that text.
Not continuously, however. For a little space his eyes had grazed the
retreating throngs over which the train was hurrying, and had rested on
the insufferable ugliness of the Bowery. Once, too, he had found himself
staring at the girl who sat opposite, and once he had detected within
him some envy of the sailor sprawling at her side. But, all the while,
that text was with him, and to the jar of the car he repeated for
refrain a paraphrase of his own: "How shall it damage a man if he lose
his own soul and gain the whole world?"
How indeed? Surely he had tried. For three years the effort had been
constant. It was because of it he had married, it was for this he had
sought to throttle his child. What his failure had been, Dunellen's
posthumous felony and Justine's ultimate reproach indistinctly yet
clearly conveyed. No, the world was not gained; he had played his best
and he had lost: he could never recover it now.
And as the brakeman bawled in his face, the paraphrase of the text was
with him. He rose and passed from the car. Beneath he could discern a
grass-plot of the City Park. In spite of the night it was visibly green.
The sky was leaden as a military uniform that has been dragged through
the mud. From a window of the Tribune Building came a vomit of vapor.
And above in a steeple a clock marked twelve.
The stairway led him down to the street. For a moment he hesitated; the
locality was unfamiliar. But a toll-gate attracted him; he approached
it, paid a penny, and moved onto the bridge. There, he discovered that
on either side of him were iron fences and iron rails; he was on the
middle of the bridge, not at the side. A train shot by. He turned again
and reissued from the gate.
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