The idea that his father would survive him, that it was he who was
doomed, that already behind the curtains of life destiny was staging his
death--and what a death!--he could no more foresee than he foresaw the
Paliser Case, which, to the parties subsequently involved, was then
unimaginable, yet which, at that very hour, a court of last resort was
deciding.
He looked over at his father. "Palmerston asked everybody, particularly
when he didn't know them from Adam, 'How's the old complaint?' How is
yours?"
With that air that had won so many hearts, and broken them too, the old
man smiled.
"When I don't eat anything and sit perfectly still, it is extraordinary
how well I feel."
How he felt otherwise, he omitted to state. A gentleman never talks of
disagreeable matters.
II
In the shouted extras that succeeded the initial news of the murder,
Margaret Austen was mentioned, not as the criminal, no one less criminal
than the girl could be imagined, but as being associated with the
parties involved.
That was her misfortune and a very grievous misfortune, though, however
grievous, it was as nothing to other circumstances for which she
subsequently blamed herself, after having previously attributed them to
fate, or rather, as fate is more modernly known, to karma.
Any belief may console. A belief in karma not only consoles, it
explains. As such it is not suited to those who accept things on faith,
which is a very good way to accept to them. It may be credulous to
believe that Jehovah dictated the ten commandments. But the commandments
are sound. Moreover it is perhaps better to be wrong in one's belief's
than not to have any.
Margaret Austen believed in karma and in many related and wonderful
things. Her face showed it. It showed other things; appreciation,
sympathy, unworldliness, good-breeding and that minor charm that beauty
is. It showed a girl good to look at, good through and through; a girl
tall, very fair, who smiled readily, rarely laughed and never
complained.
It is true that at the time this drama begins it would have been
captious of her to have complained of anything were it not that life is
so ordered that it has sorrow for shadow. The shadow on this human rose
was her mother.
Mrs. Austen had seen worse days and never proposed to see them again.
Among the chief assets of her dear departed was a block of New Haven.
The stock, before collapsing, shook. Then it tripped, fell and kept at
it. Through what financial clairvoyance the dear departed's trustee got
her out, just in time, and, quite illegally but profitably, landed her
in Standard Oil is not a part of this drama. But meanwhile she had
shuddered. Like many another widow, to whom New Haven was as good as
Governments, she might have been in the street. Pointing at her had been
that spectre--Want!
It was just that which she never proposed to see again. The spectre in
pointing had put a mark on this woman who was arrogant, ambitious and
horribly shrewd.
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