Americans -- England -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- England -- Fiction
'Selwyn,' said Dick, keeping his face turned towards the fire, 'are you
likely to see Elise soon?'
'I hardly think so,' said the American, kneeling down and stirring the
coals with the poker.
'If you do, please don't tell her I've come back. She thinks I'm in
the Orient somewhere, and if she knew I was joining up she would worry.
I suppose I shall always be "Boy-blue" to her, and never anything
older.'
Selwyn replaced the poker and sat down on a cushion that was on the
floor.
'It may be a rotten thing to say,' resumed the younger man, speaking
slowly, 'but she was more of a mother to me than my mother was. As far
back as I can remember she was the one person who believed in me. The
rest never did. When I was a kid at prep. school and brought home bad
reports, every one seemed to think me an outsider--that I wasn't
conforming--and I began to believe it. Only Elise never changed. She
was the one of the whole family who didn't want me to be somebody or
something else. You can hardly believe what that meant to me in those
days. It was a little world I lived in, but to my youngster's eyes it
looked as if everything and every person were on one side, doubting me,
and Elise was on the other, believing in me. . . . I'm not whining,
Selwyn, or saying that any one's to blame for my life except myself,
but I do believe that if Elise and I had been kept together I might not
have turned out such a rotter. Sometimes, too, I wonder if it wouldn't
have been better for her. She never made many friends--and looking
back, I think the poor little girl has had a lonely time of it.'
He relapsed into silence and shifted his head wearily on the pillow.
Johnston Smyth murmured something muffled and unintelligible in his
sleep. Selwyn placed some new lumps of coal on the fire, the flames
licking them eagerly as the sharp crackle of escaping gases punctured
the sleep-laden air.
'It does sound rather like whining to say it,' said Durwent without
opening his eyes, 'but after I was rusticated at Cambridge I tried to
travel straight. If I had gone then to the Colonies I might have made
a man of myself, but I hung around too long, and got mixed up with one
of the rottenest sets in London. I went awfully low, Selwyn, but booze
had me by the neck, and my conscience wasn't working very hard either.
And then another woman helped me. She was one of those who aren't
admitted among decent people. She came of poor family, and had made a
fairly good name for herself on the stage, and was absolutely straight
until she met that blackguard Moorewell about three years ago.'
'The man you nearly killed?'
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