Aristocracy (Social class) -- Fiction; Upper class -- England -- Fiction
It has been said that except for one lapse his life had been austere,
but this is not to assert that he had no capacity for passion. The
contrary was the case. That flame which had been so jealously guarded
smouldered deep within him—a smothered fire with but little air to feed
on. The moment his spirit was touched by the spirit of this woman, it
had flared up. She was the incarnation of all that he desired. Her hair,
her eyes, her form; the tiny tuck or dimple at the corner of her mouth
just where a child places its finger; her way of moving, a sort of
unconscious swaying or yielding to the air; the tone in her voice, which
seemed to come not so much from happiness of her own as from an
innate wish to make others happy; and that natural, if not robust,
intelligence, which belongs to the very sympathetic, and is rarely found
in women of great ambitions or enthusiasms—all these things had twined
themselves round his heart. He not only dreamed of her, and wanted her;
he believed in her. She filled his thoughts as one who could never do
wrong; as one who, though a wife would remain a mistress, and though a
mistress, would always be the companion of his spirit.
It has been said that no one spoke or gossiped about women in Miltoun's
presence, and the tale of her divorce was present to his mind simply
in the form of a conviction that she was an injured woman. After his
interview with the vicar, he had only once again alluded to it, and
that in answer to the speech of a lady staying at the Court: “Oh! yes,
I remember her case perfectly. She was the poor woman who——” “Did not,
I am certain, Lady Bonington.” The tone of his voice had made someone
laugh uneasily; the subject was changed.
All divorce was against his convictions, but in a blurred way he
admitted that there were cases where release was unavoidable. He was not
a man to ask for confidences, or expect them to be given him. He himself
had never confided his spiritual struggles to any living creature; and
the unspiritual struggle had little interest for Miltoun. He was ready
at any moment to stake his life on the perfection of the idol he had
set up within his soul, as simply and straightforwardly as he would have
placed his body in front of her to shield her from harm.
The same fanaticism, which looked on his passion as a flower by itself,
entirely apart from its suitability to the social garden, was also the
driving force which sent him up to London to declare his intention
to his father before he spoke to Mrs. Noel. The thing should be done
simply, and in right order. For he had the kind of moral courage found
in those who live retired within the shell of their own aspirations. Yet
it was not perhaps so much active moral courage as indifference to
what others thought or did, coming from his inbred resistance to the
appreciation of what they felt.
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