Love -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
He followed her upstairs to her sitting-room, and out on to a little
balcony which overlooked the Danube.
The night had in it still the soft warmth of the September day, but the
sky was dyed with violet, in which the stars were growing white. The
river swept beneath them in a leaden humming flood, and beyond it the
Castle and Hill of Buda stood black among the stars.
Ethel dropped into a low cane chair, and Caragh, seated upon the
balustrade, took a long look at the darkening air before he turned and
spoke to her.
He knew that an explanation was expected of him, reasonable, but not so
reasonable as to evade reproaches; and an apology, not humble enough to
be beneath reproof. He tendered both; and if they left his censor with
quite false impressions, that, he reflected ruefully, came of the
perverse requirements of a woman's mind.
Looking down at her lifted face below him, pale under the purple heaven
as though penetrated by the night, and still estranged, despite his
pleading, over so trumpery a cause, he wondered how much, because of
her beauty, woman had lost in understanding.
Beauty Ethel Vernon had in its most provoking, most illusive form. It
came and went like the scent of a flower, left her passive and
unpersuading, or lit her radiantly as a kindled lamp.
Even the shape of her spread skirts in the chair beneath him had in its
vagueness something, some soft glow of sense, which made it expressive,
and which made it hers. And he was anxious for peace, for peace at any
price, from such a needless strife. What he had to tell her would be
hard enough any way; but it was, at all events, something with the
dignity of fate. He could not speak of it while fighting this little
foolish fit of outraged pride, and he would not speak of it while his
tidings might seem to be touched with the malice of his punishment.
For one moment he was tempted to let this idle quarrel grow into a
cause of rupture--so easy with an offended woman--and thus be spared
speech at all. It would be easier, more considerate for her,
inclination told him, and ah! so acceptably easier and more considerate
for himself. But the temptation was not for long. In all his
unprofitable vacillations he had shirked nothing to which he had set
his name. The only chance to get square with folly was, he knew, by
paying the price of it, and the one gain possible in this worst of his
blunders seemed to be its pain. He would go through with that.
Yet, though he had his chance that evening, had it thrust upon him, he
did not take it. There is a limit even to one's appetite for pain.
But he made peace, having swallowed his scolding and admitted that the
ways of men were mad. The talk turned to easier topics, and he looked
with less apprehension at the silken shadow in the chair.
Then, with a sudden air of remembrance, Ethel put the question which
had clung for hours to the end of her tongue.
"Oh! by the way, am I to congratulate you?"
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