The Poems and Prose of Ernest Dowson, With a Memoir by Arthur SymonsDowson, Ernest Christopher
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The Poems and Prose of Ernest Dowson, With a Memoir by Arthur Symons
Dowson, Ernest Christopher
Authors, English; English poetry
He spent an hour painfully invoking casuistry, tossed to and fro
irresolutely, but never for a moment disputing that plain fact which
Sebastian had so brutally illuminated. Yes! he loved her, had loved
her all along. Marie-Yvonne! how the name expressed her! at once sweet
and serious, arch and sad as her nature. The little Breton wild
flower! how cruel it seemed to gather her! And he could do no more;
Sebastian had tied his hands. Things must be! He was a man nicely
conscientious, and now all the elaborate devices of his honour, which
had persuaded him to a disagreeable interference, were contraposed
against him. This suspicion of an ulterior motive had altered it, and
so at last he was left to decide with a sigh, that because he loved
these two so well, he must let them go their own way to misery.
Coming in later in the day, Sebastian Murch found his friend packing.
'I have come to get your answer,' he said; 'I have been walking about
the hills like a madman for hours. I have not been near her; I am
afraid. Tell me what you mean to do?'
Tregellan rose, shrugged his shoulders, pointed to his valise.
'God help you both! I would have saved you if you had let me. The
Quimperlé _Courrier_ passes in half-an-hour. I am going by it. I shall
catch a night train to Paris.'
As Sebastian said nothing; continued to regard him with the same dull,
anxious gaze, he went on after a moment:
'You did me a grave injustice; you should have known me better than
that. God knows I meant nothing shameful, only the best; the least
misery for you and her.'
'It was true then?' said Sebastian, curiously. His voice was very
cold; Tregellan found him altered. He regarded the thing as it had
been very remote, and outside them both.
'I did not know it then,' said Tregellan, shortly.
He knelt down again and resumed his packing. Sebastian, leaning
against the bed, watched him with absent intensity, which was yet
alive to trivial things, and he handed him from time to time a book, a
brush, which the other packed mechanically with elaborate care. There
was no more to say, and presently, when the chambermaid entered for
his luggage, they went down and out into the splendid sunshine,
silently. They had to cross the Square to reach the carriage, a dusty
ancient vehicle, hooded, with places for four, which waited outside
the postoffice. A man in a blue blouse preceded them, carrying
Tregellan's things. From the corner they could look down the road to
Quimperlé, and their eyes both sought the white house of Doctor
Mitouard, standing back a little in its trim garden, with its one
incongruous apple tree; but there was no one visible.
Presently, Sebastian asked, suddenly:
'Is it true, that you said last night: divorce to a Catholic--?'
Tregellan interrupted him.
'It is absolutely true, my poor friend.'
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