The Poems and Prose of Ernest Dowson, With a Memoir by Arthur SymonsDowson, Ernest Christopher
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The Poems and Prose of Ernest Dowson, With a Memoir by Arthur Symons
Dowson, Ernest Christopher
Authors, English; English poetry
'It is not much, Monsieur!' he observed, deprecatingly, smoothing his
hat with the cuff of his frayed coat-sleeve. 'But it is sufficient;
and I prefer it to teaching. In effect, they are very charming, the
seraphic young girls of your country! But they seem to care little for
music; and I am a difficult master, and have not enough patience.
Once, you see, a long time ago, I had a perfect pupil, and perhaps
that spoilt me. Yes! I prefer the theatre, though it is less
profitable. It is not as it once was,' he added, with a half sigh; 'I
am no longer ambitious. Yes, Monsieur, when I was young, I was
ambitious. I wrote a symphony and several concertos. I even brought
out at Vienna an opera, which I thought would make me famous; but the
good folk of Vienna did not appreciate me, and they would have none of
my music. They said it was antiquated, my opera, and absurd; and yet,
it seemed to me good. I think that Gluck, that great genius, would
have liked it; and that is what I should have wished. Ah! how long ago
it seems, that time when I was ambitious! But you must excuse me,
Monsieur! your good company makes me garrulous. I must be at the
theatre. If I am not in my place at the half-hour, they fine me two
shillings and sixpence, and that I can ill afford, you know,
Monsieur!'
In spite of his defeats, his long and ineffectual struggle with
adversity, M. Cristich, I discovered, as our acquaintance ripened, had
none of the spleen and little of the vanity of the unsuccessful
artist. He seemed in his forlorn old age to have accepted his
discomfiture with touching resignation, having acquired neither
cynicism nor indifference. He was simply an innocent old man, in love
with his violin and with his art, who had acquiesced in
disappointment; and it was impossible to decide, whether he even
believed in his talent, or had not silently accredited the verdict of
musical Vienna, which had condemned his opera in those days when he
was ambitious. The precariousness of the London Opera was the one fact
which I ever knew to excite him to expressions of personal resentment.
When its doors were closed, his hard poverty (it was the only occasion
when he protested against it), drove him, with his dear instrument and
his accomplished fingers, into the orchestras of lighter houses, where
he was compelled to play music which he despised. He grew silent and
rueful during these periods of irksome servitude, rolled innumerable
cigarettes, which he smoked with fierceness and great rapidity. When
dinner was done, he was often volubly indignant, in Hungarian, to the
proprietor. But with the beginning of the season his mood lightened.
He bore himself more sprucely, and would leave me, to assist at a
representation of _Don Giovanni_, or _Tannhauser_, with a face which
was almost radiant. I had known him a year before it struck me that I
should like to see him in his professional capacity. I told him of my
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