The Poems and Prose of Ernest Dowson, With a Memoir by Arthur SymonsDowson, Ernest Christopher
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The Poems and Prose of Ernest Dowson, With a Memoir by Arthur Symons
Dowson, Ernest Christopher
Authors, English; English poetry
During five years of an almost daily association with Michael Garth,
in a solitude of Chili, which threw us, men of common speech, though
scarcely of common interests, largely on each other's tolerance, I had
grown, if not into an intimacy with him, at least into a certain
familiarity, through which the salient feature of his history, his
character reached me. It was a singular character, and an history rich
in instruction. So much I gathered from hints, which he let drop long
before I had heard the end of it. Unsympathetic as the man was to me,
it was impossible not to be interested by it. As our acquaintance
advanced, it took (his character I mean) more and more the aspect of a
difficult problem in psychology, that I was passionately interested in
solving: to study it was my recreation, after watching the fluctuating
course of nitrates. So that when I had achieved fortune, and might
have started home immediately, my interest induced me to wait more
than three months, and return in the same ship with him. It was
through this delay that I am enabled to transcribe the issue of my
impressions: I found them edifying, if only for their singular irony.
From his own mouth indeed I gleaned but little; although during our
voyage home, in those long nights when we paced the deck together
under the Southern Cross, his reticence occasionally gave way, and I
obtained glimpses of a more intimate knowledge of him than the whole
of our juxtaposition on the station had ever afforded me. I guessed
more, however, than he told me; and what was lacking I pieced together
later, from the talk of the girl to whom I broke the news of his
death. He named her to me, for the first time, a day or two before
that happened: a piece of confidence so unprecedented, that I must
have been blind, indeed, not to have foreseen what it prefaced. I had
seen her face the first time I entered his house, where her photograph
hung on a conspicuous wall: the charming, oval face of a young girl,
little more than a child, with great eyes, that one guessed, one knew
not why, to be the colour of violets, looking out with singular
wistfulness from a waving cloud of dark hair. Afterwards, he told me
that it was the picture of his _fiancée_: but, before that, signs had
not been wanting by which I had read a woman in his life.
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