Methodist Church (Great Britain) -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
'You are going to be my wife,' he went on, as if she had not spoken;
'some day, if not now, you are going to wake up to the fact that you
love me, as I love you,--that just as you are the only woman in the
world to me, so I am the only man in the world to you. That is not
because of my worthiness, because I am not worthy, but because the fire
which burns in my heart will be kindled in yours. This seems like
madness on my part, doesn't it?--but I am not mad. I am only speaking
because of a great conviction, and because my love envelops me, fills
me, overwhelms me. Don't you see? Then this has come to me: I am
poor, I am nameless, homeless,--but what of that? Love such as mine
makes everything possible, and I am going to make a name, make wealth,
make riches;--it won't take me long. Why,' and he laughed as he spoke,
'what is a great love for, but to conquer difficulties, to sweep away
impossibilities?'
'But this is madness, Mr. Edgecumbe,' replied the girl, finding her
voice at last. 'I can't allow you to speak in such a way any longer;
it would be wrong for me to do so. I do not wish to hurt you, and
indeed I am very sorry for you. I never thought that you would think
of me in this way; if I had, I would never have asked you to come here.
But you must see how impossible everything is; our habits of life, our
associations, everything, make it impossible. Besides, I don't love
you,--never can love you.'
'Oh, yes, you can,' replied Edgecumbe, 'and you will. It may be you
will have a great battle to fight,--I think you will; but you will love
me. When I am away from you,--when I am over in France, facing death,
you will think of me, think of this hour, and you will remember that
wherever I am, and whatever I am, I am thinking of you, loving
you,--that my one object in life will be to win a position for you, to
win a name for you. No, no, do not fear that I would ask you to marry
me until, even in that sense, I am worthy of you. But you are young,
and can wait, and, as you remember, perhaps in the silence of the
night, that there is a man whom God made for you, thinking for you,
striving for you,--you will learn the great secret.'
I fancy at that time Lorna Bolivick really thought his mind was
unhinged; I imagine, too, that she was afraid, because Edgecumbe told
me that a look amounting almost to terror was in her eyes. But he
seems to have taken no notice of this, for he went on.
'You are thinking of other men who love you; that young fellow Buller
is very fond of you in his own way, and perhaps Springfield has also
made love to you. Perhaps, too, he has fascinated you. But that will
not stop you from loving me. Even if you have promised him anything,
you must give him up.'
'Perhaps you will finish your walk alone, Mr. Edgecumbe,' she said.
'I--I am going back to the house.'
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