"No, you'll have to guess again," said Mrs. Belloc. "Not a man. You
remember, I used to be crazy about gay life in New York--going out, and
men, theaters, and lobster-palaces--everything I didn't get in my home
town, everything the city means to the jays. Well, I've gotten over all
that. I'm improving, mind and body, just to keep myself interested in
life, to keep myself young and cheerful. I'm interested in myself, in
my house and in woman's suffrage. Not that the women are fit to vote.
They aren't, any more than the men. But what MAKES people? Why,
responsibility. That old scamp I married--he's dead. And I've got the
money, and everything's very comfortable with me. Just think, I didn't
have any luck till I was an old maid far gone. I'm not telling my age.
All my life it had rained bad luck--pitchforks, tines down. And why?"
"Yes, why?" said Mildred. She did not understand how it was, but Mrs.
Belloc seemed to be saying the exact things she needed to hear.
"I'll tell you why. Because I didn't work. Drudging along isn't work
any more than dawdling along. Work means purpose, means head. And my
luck began just as anybody's does--when I rose up and got busy. You
may say it wasn't very creditable, the way I began; but it was the best
_I_ could do. I know it isn't good morals, but I'm willing to bet that
many a man has laid the foundations of a big fine career by doing
something that wasn't at all nice or right. He had to do it, to 'get
through.' If he hadn't done it, he'd never have 'got through.' Anyhow,
whether that's so or not, everyone's got to make a fight to break into
the part of the world where living's really worth living. But I needn't
tell YOU that. You're doing it."
"No, I'm not," replied Mildred. "I'm ashamed to say so, but I'm not.
I've been bluffing--and wasting time."
"That's bad, that's bad," said Mrs. Belloc. "Especially, as you've got
it in you to get there. What's been the trouble? The wrong kind of
associations?"
"Partly," said Mildred.
Mrs. Belloc, watching her interestedly, suddenly lighted up. "Why not
come back here to live?" said she. "Now, please don't refuse till I
explain. You remember what kind of people I had here?"
Mildred smiled. "Rather--unconventional?"
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