And he stood aside, opening the door for her. She hesitated, dazed
that she was leaving, with the feeling of the conquered, a field on
which, by all the precedents, she ought to have been victor. She
passed a troubled night, debated whether to relate her queer experience
to Mrs. Belloc, decided for silence. It drafted into service all her
reserve of courage to walk into the theater the next day and to appear
on the stage among the assembled company with her usual air. Ransdell
greeted her with his customary friendly courtesy and gave her his
attention, as always. By the time they had got through the first act,
in which her part was one of four of about equal importance, she had
recovered herself and was in the way to forget the strange stage
director's strange attack and even stranger retreat. But the situation
changed with the second act, in which she was on the stage all the time
and had the whole burden. The act as originally written had been less
generous to her; but Ransdell had taken one thing after another away
from the others and had given it to her. She made her first entrance
precisely as he had trained her to make it and began. A few seconds,
and he stopped her.
"Please try again, Miss Gower," said he. "I'm afraid that won't do."
She tried again; again he stopped her. She tried a third time. His
manner was all courtesy and consideration, not the shade of a change.
But she began to feel a latent hostility. Instinctively she knew that
he would no longer help her, that he would leave her to her own
resources, and judge her by how she acquitted herself. She made a
blunder of her third trial.
"Really, Miss Gower, that will never do," said he mildly. "Let me show
you how you did it."
He gave an imitation of her--a slight caricature. A titter ran through
the chorus. He sternly rebuked them and requested her to try again.
Her fourth attempt was her worst. He shook his head in gentle
remonstrance. "Not quite right yet," said he regretfully. "But we'll
go on."
Not far, however. He stopped her again. Again the courteous, kindly
criticism. And so on, through the entire act. By the end of it,
Mildred's nerves were unstrung. She saw the whole game, and realized
how helpless she was. Before the end of that rehearsal, Mildred had
slipped back from promising professional into clumsy amateur, tolerable
only because of the beautiful freshness of her voice--and it was a
question whether voice alone would save her. Yet no one but Mildred
herself suspected that Ransdell had done it, had revenged himself, had
served notice on her that since she felt strong enough to stand alone
she was to have every opportunity to do so. He had said nothing
disagreeable; on the contrary, he had been most courteous, most
forbearing.
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