Ten minutes later she stood, lost in a dream, beside the stream as it
flowed through a field, three hundred yards distant from the house. It
swept here round a curve, its course being partly arrested by a bank of
shingle; and beyond the shingle, in its détour, it poured in a rustling
flow, bubbling soft whispers and singing to itself.
This hour after breakfast was Phyllys' most free time. At eleven
o'clock, if not sooner, Barbara would remorselessly summon her to
practise and read and darn. Time spent in the open air was wasted
in the elder cousin's estimation. Barbara believed in a brisk
constitutional, to and from a given point within a given time, for
health; but she never lounged under a tree, never dallied by a stream,
in dreamy thought. That with her meant "idleness."
With Phyllys it neither meant nor was idleness. She was not idle,
standing on the grass bank, motionless, her hands clasped behind her
back. She wore no hat, and a breeze stirred her hair, bringing forth
reddish gleams.
Her mind was at work. She loved Nature, loved the beauty of flower and
fell; read meanings in the voices of running water, rustling leaves,
singing birds. These things appealed to her artist-nature, and drew
her on to deeper thought. When she could escape from home and its
restraints, she was happy in what is called solitude, because in touch
with her surroundings.
Yet, even in her happiest hours, she was conscious of a want. She
craved for some one to understand what she felt, to enjoy the beauty
with her. She craved to find the inner meanings of life. There was such
an infinitude that she could not fathom; and clues were lacking.
This morning her thoughts were chiefly occupied with Giles.
Once before she had seen him, when a child of nine; and then for years
she had been abroad, travelling with her widowed mother, in search
of lost health, never to be regained. Since her mother's death she
had lived at Midfell, paying an occasional visit to friends of her
grandmother, but secluded from other influences. Often she had heard of
Giles and Colin, though not in terms of praise. Mrs. Wyverne had rather
implied than asserted condemnation; but according to Barbara, Giles and
his friends were one and all to be avoided, as a dainty person shuns
pitch; and to withhold Phyllys from their influence was a matter of
duty.
Which opinion, naturally, made Phyllys want to know them! For years her
dream of impossible delights had been—a visit to Castle Hill.
Now the unlikely had come about. She had seen Giles, had talked with
him had felt that she and he might become friends. She felt it still,
though vexed with herself for letting the thought so soon slip into
words.
And she might be again invited to Castle Hill. "If only I could go! To
know what it is to live! This is existence! And oh! to get away from
Barbara and Miss Robins. Even—for a time—from Grannie!"
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