For a week all went well, and the bust made progress. Colin was
unusually vigorous; perhaps from the light moor air which seemed to
keep headache at bay. "I shall know where to go next time when I want
change," he said. He looked his best; active, joyous, full of delight
in his task, full also of bright expectancy in another direction, which
the Vicar saw with gladness, and Mrs. Wyverne with anxiety.
Phyllys enjoyed having him. She delighted in his artistic talk; she
chatted freely as she sat for her clay portrait; and the hours slid by.
It was reflection of Castle Hill happiness.
But after days of work and intercourse, a change dawned. Mrs. Wyverne
had one morning been called away, and Phyllys occupied the usual
position.
"I've had to write at last to let them know where I am," he remarked.
Then—"You are tired. Take it easy for five minutes. You must rest."
She had found it out herself earlier. A weariness had taken possession
of her, a longing for something, she could not define what. All this
seemed not worth while. She stood and stretched herself while he turned
to do something with one of the little wooden instruments.
And the thought came—if Giles had been there instead of Colin!
It was like a wave of understanding poured over her. In a moment she
saw that she was tired of having Colin only in place of Giles. She
liked him, admired his gifts, enjoyed his conversation. But her real
want was for Giles. She wanted him, not for his mental gifts, not for
aught that he might say or do, but for himself. She wanted the strong
manly presence, the intense devotion. "Was" it devotion? Did he care
for her further than as a friend? How was she to know?
Colin by comparison was nothing. Suddenly she had grown satiated with
Nature and Art, with his thoughts about both. He had fascinated her,
and he might fascinate her again; but he could not give all she wanted.
Not Nature, not Art, still less theories about either, could meet her
claims. It was love that she needed; Giles' love.
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