Eve had wondered whether James Canterton was suffering. It is not given
to many of us to feel acutely, or to travel beyond the shallows of an
emotional self-pity, but Canterton had much of the spirit of the
Elizabethans—men built for a big, adventurous, passionate play. He had
slept no more than Eve had done, and had spent most of the night walking
in the woods and lanes and over the wastes of heather and furze. He,
too, was trying to realise that this experience was at an end, that a
burning truth had been shown him—that they had flown too near the sun,
and the heat had scorched their wings.
Yet his mood was one of rebellion. He was asking why and wherefore,
thrusting that masterful creativeness of his against the conventional
barriers that the woman had refused to challenge. For the first time his
vitality was running in complete and tumultuous opposition to the
conventional currents that had hardly been noticed by him till his will
was defied. The scorn of theory was upon him, and he felt the strong
man’s desire to brush the seeming artificiality aside. Had he not made
self-restraint his own law, and was he to herd with men who put their
signatures openly to the sexual compact, and broke their vows in secret?
Eve was afraid, not only for herself, but for him and for Lynette. But,
good God! had he ever intended to force her to sacrifice herself, to
defy society, or to enter into a conspiracy of passion? Was it
everything or nothing with such a woman? If so, she had shown a touching
magnanimity and wisdom, and uttered a cry that was heroic. But he could
not believe it; her pleading that this love of theirs was mad and
impossible. It was too pathetic, her confessing that she could not trust
herself. He was strong enough to be trusted for them both. The night had
made everything more sacred. He would refuse to let her sacrifice their
comradeship.
Canterton, too, saw the dawn come up, and the sun appear as a great
splash of gold. He was standing on the south-east edge of the
Wilderness, with the gloom of the larch wood behind him, and as the sun
rose, its level rays struck on the stream in the valley, and the deep
pool among the willows where the water lay as black and as still as
glass.
A clear head and a clean body. The whim that seized him had logic and
symbolism. He walked down over the wet grass to the pool among the
willows, where a punt lay moored to a landing stage, and a diving board
projected over the water. Canterton stripped and plunged, and went
lashing round and round the pool, feeling a clean vigour in his body, as
his heart and blood answered the cold sting of the water.
It was half-past six when he made his way back up the hill to the
gardens. A glorious day had come, and the dew still sparkled on the
flowers. Wandering across the lawns he saw an auburn head at an open
window, and a small hand waving a towel.
“Daddy, I’m coming—I’m coming!”
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