London (England) -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
have been cold all my life, even when I thought I was warm. I have seen
none of the beautiful patricians who sat for the great painters—the
gorgeous beings whose golden hair was intertwined with pearls; but I am
studying Italian in order to talk with the shuffling, clicking maidens
who work in the bead-factories—I am determined to make one or two of
them look at me. When they have filled their old water-pots at the
fountain it is jolly to see them perch them on their heads and patter
away over the polished Venetian stones. It’s a charm to be in a country
where the women don’t wear the hideous British bonnet. Even in my own
class (excuse the expression—I remember it used to offend you), I have
never known a young female, in London, to put her nose out of the door
without it; and if you had frequented such young females as much as I
have you would have learned of what degradation that dreary necessity
is the source. The floor of my room is composed of little brick tiles,
and to freshen the air, in this temperature, one sprinkles it, as you
no doubt know, with water. Before long, if I keep on sprinkling, I
shall be able to swim about; the green shutters are closed, and the
place makes a very good tank. Through the chinks the hot light of the
campo comes in. I smoke cigarettes, and in the pauses of this
composition recline on a faded magenta divan in the corner. Convenient
to my hand, in that attitude, are the works of Leopardi and a
second-hand dictionary. I am very happy—happier than I have ever been
in my life save at Medley—and I don’t care for anything but the present
hour. It won’t last long, for I am spending all my money. When I have
finished this I shall go forth and wander about in the splendid
Venetian afternoon; and I shall spend the evening in that enchanted
square of St Mark’s, which resembles an immense open-air drawing-room,
listening to music and feeling the sea-breeze blow in between those two
strange old columns, in the piazzetta, which seem to make a portal for
it. I can scarcely believe that it’s of myself that I am telling these
fine things; I say to myself a dozen times a day that Hyacinth Robinson
is not in it—I pinch my leg to see if I’m not dreaming. But a short
time hence, when I have resumed the exercise of my profession, in sweet
Soho, I shall have proof enough that it has been my very self: I shall
know that by the terrible grind I shall feel my work to be.
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