London (England) -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
Hyacinth exchanged a look with that afflicted woman; he saw something
in her face which he knew very well by this time, and the sight of
which always gave him an odd, perverse, unholy satisfaction. It seemed
to say that she prostrated herself, that she did penance in the dust,
that she was his to trample upon, to spit upon. He did neither of these
things, but she was constantly offering herself, and her permanent
humility, her perpetual abjection, was a sort of counter-irritant to
the soreness lodged in his own heart for ever, which had often made him
cry with rage at night, in his little room under the roof. Pinnie meant
that, to-day, as a matter of course, and she could only especially mean
it in the presence of Miss Henning’s remark about his looking like a
Frenchman. He knew he looked like a Frenchman, he had often been told
so before, and a large part of the time he felt like one—like one of
those he had read about in Michelet and Carlyle. He had picked up the
French tongue with the most extraordinary facility, with the aid of one
of his mates, a refugee from Paris, in the workroom, and of a
second-hand dog’s-eared dictionary, bought for a shilling in the
Brompton Road, in one of his interminable, restless, melancholy, moody,
yet all-observant strolls through London. He spoke it (as he believed)
as if by instinct, caught the accent, the gesture, the movement of
eyebrow and shoulder; so that if it should become necessary in certain
contingencies that he should pass for a foreigner he had an idea that
he might do so triumphantly, once he could borrow a blouse. He had
never seen a blouse in his life, but he knew exactly the form and
colour of such a garment, and how it was worn. What these contingencies
might be which should compel him to assume the disguise of a person of
a social station lower still than his own, Hyacinth would not for the
world have mentioned to you; but as they were very present to the mind
of our imaginative, ingenious youth we shall catch a glimpse of them in
the course of a further acquaintance with him. At the present moment,
when there was no question of masquerading, it made him blush again
that such a note should be struck by a loud, laughing, handsome girl,
who came back out of his past. There was more in Pinnie’s weak eyes,
now, than her usual profession; there was a dumb intimation, almost as
pathetic as the other, that if he cared to let her off easily he would
not detain their terrible visitor very long. He had no wish to do that;
he kept the door open, on purpose; he didn’t enjoy talking to girls
under Pinnie’s eyes, and he could see that this one had every
disposition to talk. So without responding to her observation about his
appearance he said, not knowing exactly what to say, “Have you come
back to live in the Place?”
“Heaven forbid I should ever do that!” cried Miss Henning, with genuine
emotion. “I have to live near the establishment in which I’m employed.”
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