London (England) -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
Hyacinth never knew that Mr Vetch had said more than once to Pinnie,
“If her contention as regards that dissolute young swell was true, why
didn’t she make the child bear his real name, instead of his false
one?”—an inquiry which the dressmaker answered with some ingenuity, by
remarking that she couldn’t call him after a man she had murdered, and
that she supposed the unhappy girl didn’t wish to publish to every one
the boy’s connection with a crime that had been so much talked about.
If Hyacinth had assisted at this little discussion it is needless to
say that he would have sided with Miss Pynsent; though that his
judgment was independently formed is proved by the fact that Pinnie’s
fearfully indiscreet attempts at condolence should not have made him
throw up his version in disgust. It was after the complete revelation
that he understood the romantic innuendoes with which his childhood had
been surrounded, and of which he had never caught the meaning; they
having seemed but part and parcel of the habitual and promiscuous
divagations of his too constructive companion. When it came over him
that, for years, she had made a fool of him, to himself and to others,
he could have beaten her, for grief and shame; and yet, before he
administered this rebuke he had to remember that she only chattered
(though she professed to have been extraordinarily dumb) about a matter
which he spent nine-tenths of his time in brooding over. When she tried
to console him for the horror of his mother’s history by descanting on
the glory of the Purvises, and reminding him that he was related,
through them, to half the aristocracy of England, he felt that she was
turning the tragedy of his life into a monstrous farce; and yet he none
the less continued to cherish the belief that he was a gentleman born.
He allowed her to tell him nothing about the family in question, and
his stoicism on this subject was one of the reasons of the deep
dejection of her later years. If he had only let her idealise him a
little to himself she would have felt that she was making up, by so
much, for her grand mistake. He sometimes saw the name of his father’s
relations in the newspaper, but he always turned away his eyes from it.
He had nothing to ask of them, and he wished to prove to himself that
he could ignore them (who had been willing to let him die like a rat)
as completely as they ignored him. Decidedly, he cried to himself at
times, he was with the people, and every possible vengeance of the
people, as against such shameless egoism as that; but all the same he
was happy to feel that he had blood in his veins which would account
for the finest sensibilities.
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