Female friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Paris (France) -- Fiction; Women -- Fiction
“Oh, you are too good to me!” exclaimed Martha. “You spoke of knowing
that I liked you. I don’t _like_ you--I _love_ you! I don’t _love_
you--I _adore_ you! O _Sonia_!” and the girl actually slipped from the
low chair to her knees beside the lounge.
The princess jumped to her feet, and with strong hands lifted Martha to
hers; then holding both the girl’s hands, and stretching her arms apart
to their full length, as their two faces were drawn together thus, she
kissed Martha with affectionate warmth.
“What a dear thing you are!” she said. “How good it is to see some one
who can really feel! How tired one gets of the _fin-de-siècle_ spirit in
both women and men! Bless you, my Martha! You have come to be a great
joy in my life. I feel that we are going to be friends for always--do
you?”
“Oh, if you will let me! If you will only not be disappointed in me! I
am afraid to speak, afraid to breathe almost, for fear that you will
find out that I am only a poor, commonplace little creature, in whom
your goodness has made you see something which does not exist. Oh, I
_pray_ I may not disappoint you! And yet how can I dare to hope?”
“Listen, Martha,” said the princess in a matter-of-fact tone, as she
drew the other down to a seat beside her on the lounge; “let us take
each other quite simply, and not promise anything. We will just agree to
be perfectly natural with each other--just to be ourselves. If you
continue to like me, and I you, it is all right. If not, we shall have
broken no pledges and done each other no wrong. Now, with that basis to
go upon, we can both feel natural and satisfied. Only don’t cover up
your real self to me, for you may be concealing just what I love, and
pretending what I hate. It is because you are different from others that
I have been so drawn to you. Now don’t try to be like other people, and
ruin everything.”
“Oh, I feel I can be myself with you. I feel I can tell you everything
that is in my heart, and talk of things that I have never been able to
speak of to others. How beautiful it is! How strange that such a
relationship between two women can come about here in Paris in this age
of the world!”
“It could not if we were Parisians; but both of us being foreign to this
atmosphere, it can. I love your being an American. I felt sure you were
even before I asked Etienne.”
“And did he tell you? I have always understood that he never answered
questions about his students.”
“So have I; but I asked him all the same, and he told me who you were. I
had quite fancied you before, and after that I fancied you still more,
as I love the ideal of the American, a creature newer from Nature’s
hands, and nearer to her heart, than we of the Old World; and,
fortunately or otherwise, I have known too few of your people either to
confirm or contradict this idea. So now I think I shall go on liking
you. And how is it with you? Do you think you will not be disappointed
in me?”
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