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There was hardly more pleasantness left in his life than in the dreary
rain-washed garden outside. And yet his life had not been without
its triumphs--as the world counts success. He had, when still young,
married the woman he passionately loved, and work for her sake had
seemed so easy that he had risen from poverty to competence, and from
competence to wealth. Born in the poorest ranks of the workers in a
crowded Stockport alley, he had started in life as a mill 'hand,' and
he was ending it now a millowner, and master of many hands.
He had himself been taught in no school but that of life; but he did
not attribute his own success to his education any more than he did
the fatuous failure of some University men to their peculiar training;
so he had sent his sons to Cambridge, and had lived to see them
leave their college well-grown and handsome, with not more than the
average stock of prejudices and follies, and fit to be compared, not
unfavourably, with any young men in the county.
But by some fatality he had never tasted the full sweetness of any
of the fruit his life-tree had borne him. His parents had died in
want and misery at a time when he himself was too poor to help them.
His wife, who had bravely shared his earlier struggles, did not live
to share their reward. She patiently bore the trials of their early
married life, but in the comfort that was to follow she had no part.
She died, and left him almost broken-hearted. Her memory would always
be the dearest thing in the world to him; but a man's warm, living,
beating heart needs something more than a memory to lavish its love
upon. This something more he found in her children. In them all his
hopes had been centred; for them all his efforts had been made. They
were, individually, all that he had dreamed they might be, and they
were both devoted to him; and yet, as he lay on his deathbed, his mind
was ill at ease about them. Did he exaggerate? Was it weakness and
illness, the beginning of the end, that had made him think, through
these last few weeks, that there was growing up between these two
beloved sons a coolness--a want of sympathy, an indisposition to run
well in harness together--which might lead to sore trouble?
There certainly had been one or two slight quarrels between them which
had been made up through his own intervention. How would it be, he
wondered, when he was not there any more to smooth things over? Somehow
he did not feel that he cared to live any longer, even to keep peace
between his boys. That must be done some other way. Truth to say, he
was very tired of being alive.
The October day faded, and presently the sick-room was lighted only
by the red flickering glow of the fire, which threw strange fantastic
shadows from the handsome commonplace furniture, and made the
portraits on the walls seem to look out of their frames with quite new
expressions.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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