"Mr. Fenton used to say that asceticism was the most insolent insult to
Heaven that human vanity ever invented."
"But if we are to follow the devices and desires of our own hearts,"
Ashe broke out, his inner excitement bursting forth through his
calmness, "if we are to give way to the joys of this life, if--Do you
not see, Mrs. Fenton, that this covers so much? It goes down into the
depths of a man's heart. It comes almost at once, for instance, to the
question of the marriage of priests."
She flushed, and her manner grew perceptibly colder.
"That is naturally not a subject that I care to go into," she said;
"but I have no scruple against saying that I do not believe in a
celibate priesthood. In our church and our time, it is out of place."
"But it is the supreme test whether a man is willing to give up all his
earthly joy for the service of Heaven."
She frowned slightly, and he realized how significant his manner must
have been.
"The marriage of the clergy is not a subject that it seems to me
necessary for us to discuss," she said.
"Mrs. Fenton," Philip said, "I have given you too good a right to be
offended with me once, but I must say something that I fear may offend
you again. It is not about myself. It is about a better man."
She looked at him in evident surprise and disquiet.
"I asked what you think of the marriage of the clergy," he went on,
"because it seems to me right to tell you that Mr. Candish loves you."
She flushed to her temples, starting impulsively in her seat.
"Mr. Ashe," she said vehemently, "what right have you to talk to me of
such subjects at all?"
"None," he answered, "none at all,--unless--None that you would
recognize; but I wish to atone for the wrong I did in speaking to you,
and to say what he would never say. If it were possible that you cared
for him, I should perhaps help you both."
"You forget, I think, that I have been married."
"I do not forget anything," Philip returned desperately. "It is only
that he is a good man, a noble man, a man that would never have fallen
under his weakness as I did, and if you cared for him, he is too fine
to be allowed to suffer. He loved you long before I ever saw you."
"He has never given me any sign of it."
Her flushed cheeks and something in the way in which she said this
seemed to him to indicate that she did love Candish. He had been moved
by the most sincere desire to sacrifice his own will and happiness to
the well-being of the woman he loved, and if it were that she loved his
rival he had been ready to forget everything but that. Now by a quick
revulsion it seemed to him that he could not endure the success of this
man whose cause he had been pleading.
"Ah!" he cried, bending toward her, "you love him!"
She rose indignantly to her feet.
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