He had a conscience, that mechanical conscience which becomes so active
in times of great moral obliquity, against telling a little lie, and
saying he had not spoken. He went on up stairs without answering
anything. He indulged the self pity, a little longer, of feeling himself
an old man forced from his home, and he had a blind reasonless
resentment of the behavior of the men who were driving him away, and
whose interests, even at that moment, he was mindful of. But he threw
off this mood when he entered his room, and settled himself to business.
There was a good deal to be done in the arrangement of papers for his
indefinite absence, and he used the same care in providing for some
minor contingencies in the company's affairs as in leaving instructions
to his children for their action until they should hear from him again.
Afterwards this curious scrupulosity became a matter of comment among
those privy to it; some held it another proof of the ingrained rascality
of the man, a trick to suggest lenient construction of his general
conduct in the management of the company's finances, others saw in it an
interesting example of the involuntary operation of business instincts
which persisted at a juncture when the man might be supposed to have
been actuated only by the most intensely selfish motives.
The question was not settled even in the final retrospect, when it
appeared that at the very moment that Northwick showed himself mindful
of the company's interests on those minor points, he was defrauding it
further in the line of his defalcations, and keeping back a large sum of
money that belonged to it. But at that moment Northwick did not consider
that this money necessarily belonged to the company, any more than his
daughters' house and farm belonged to it. To be sure it was the fruit of
money he had borrowed or taken from the company and had used in an
enormously successful deal; but the company had not earned it, and in
driving him into a corner, in forcing him to make instant restitution of
all its involuntary loans, it was justifying him in withholding this
part of them. Northwick was a man of too much sense to reason explicitly
to this effect, but there was a sophistry, tacitly at work in him to
this effect, which made it possible for him to go on and steal more
where he had already stolen so much. In fact it presented the further
theft as a sort of duty. This sum, large as it was, really amounted to
nothing in comparison with the sum he owed the company; but it formed
his only means of restitution, and if he did not take it and use it to
that end, he might be held recreant to his moral obligations. He
contended, from that vestibule of his soul where he was not a thief,
with that self of his inmost where he was a thief, that it was all most
fortunate, if not providential, as it had fallen out. Not only had his
broker sent him that large check for his winnings in stocks the day
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