Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
She sat down, trailing her feet in the water. She was smiling now,
secretly and to herself, as if she didn't want him to know it. “It's too
little,” she pouted. “I couldn't drown in that.”
Peter seated himself at her side, with his knees drawn up to his chin.
When he spoke, it was with an air of grave confession. “I'm awfully glad
it was too little.”
She turned her head, looking at him from under her long lashes
provocatively; but he was staring straight before him with vacant eyes,
as if something very sweet and awful were happening. She reached out
her hand and touched him; she noticed how he trembled. “And if it hadn't
been too little, it wouldn't have mattered--not to you.”
He didn't answer her immediately. When he spoke it was slowly, as if
each word hurt as he dragged it out. “It would have mattered, because
then you wouldn't have been in the world.”
“But you didn't know that I was in the world this morning.”
He shook his head, as much as to tell her that her objection was quite
beside the question. “I know that. But I think I should have missed you
just the same, without knowing exactly what I was missing.”
She laughed outright, swaying against him and burying her hands in the
green things growing. “You are funny--yes, and dear. I never met a boy
like you. You didn't really think----?”
He gazed at her wonderingly. Each time he looked at her, he found
something new that was beautiful. It was her throat this time, long
and delicate like a Lent lily. As he watched it, he could see how the
laughter bubbled up inside it; he longed, with the instinct of a child,
to lay his fingers on it.
“You didn't really think----?”
He nodded. “That you were going to kill yourself? Yes--and weren't you?”
She ceased laughing. “I don't think so. I'm such a coward. And then,”
she commenced laughing again, “killing yourself is such a worry--you
can only do it once and, if you're not careful, you don't look pretty. I
always want to look pretty. Do--do you think I'm pretty?”
He choked and swallowed. His mouth was dry. He couldn't bring his voice
to the surface. She drooped her face away from him, pretending to take
offense. “You don't. I can see that. You needn't tell me.”
His words came with a rush. “I do! I do! I think, when God made you,
He must have said to Himself, 'I'll make the most beautiful person--the
most beautiful person I ever made.' It was something like that He said.”
His quivering earnestness made her solemn. She hadn't meant to stir him
so deeply. “What an odd way of saying things you have. I don't suppose
God cared much about my making. He just had me manufactured with the
rest.”
A warm hand slipped into hers and a shy voice whispered, “He made you
Himself. I'm certain.”
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