Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
She was inclined to be penitent. She was both annoyed and amused with
herself for what she had done. On the spur of the moment she was always
doing wild things like that to people she cared for--doing them that she
might measure their love by her power to hurt them. She wondered whether
he blamed her, and how long he would keep silent.
The river had become a pathway of ebony, inlaid with silver by the
moonlight. Along its banks illuminations smoldered, scorching red wounds
in the shadows. Here and there a candle flared, sank and died, like
a heart which had broken itself with longing. Craft drifted like logs
through the blackness. They seemed deserted, unpiloted; yet they bore
with them the sense of lips that whispered against other lips and of
hands that touched. “To-morrow!” everything seemed to say. “To-morrow!
But there is still to-night.”
To-morrow lovers would have vanished. Faces, which in the past week one
had learnt to recognize, about which one had built up fancies, would be
seen no more. The haunting poignancy of parting was in the night, the
memory of things exquisite and unlasting.
And Peter, he couldn't understand what had happened to him. It seemed a
dream from which he was waking; he wanted to sleep again and recapture
the illusion. From the first he had recognized an atmosphere of danger
in her presence. She was so foreign to his experience; it was scarcely
likely that a friendship with her would lead to happiness. And yet he
could not do without her. On those sunlit mornings aboard _The Skylark_,
when he had opened his eyes to hear the river tapping, had looked out
of his window to see the breeze whipping the water and the plumed trees
nodding, there had been no rest in the day's gladness till he had heard
her tripping footsteps. She had crept into his blood. All past things
were unremembered--past ambitions and past loyalties. Every beauty
grouped itself about her. The grayness of her eyes drew his soul out.
The soft, slurring notes of her voice were for him the finest music. Had
he been offered the joy of one month with her, for which all the years
of his life should be forfeit, he would willingly have accepted. The
thought of marriage had already occurred to him. That he should be only
nineteen was a tragedy. Would she wait for him? With no more than a
week's acquaintance by which to judge he knew that she would wait for no
one. She was elusive--one moment a child, the next a woman. And she sat
there gazing at him through the shadows, her hands folded meekly on her
breast--a nunlike trick which she had learnt at the convent. It gave
her an appearance of piety, which the red defiance of her mouth and gray
challenge of her eyes negatived. She was the first woman he had loved.
He loved her uncalculatingly, with his soul and body, as a man loves but
once, when he is young.
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