Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
The gladness died in him. It was as though the lamps behind his eyes
had guttered out. His voice trembled. His face had grown lean and sad.
“Don't say that, Cherry--it keeps us separate. You don't love me now,
perhaps; but one day you'll need me. I'm waiting till you need me, and
then----. You are my sort, Cherry; but I'll never be good enough for
you. All the time I'm trying, ever since I've known you I've been trying
to become better. It's like yesterday: whenever I'm losing the race and
getting slack I hear you calling. Then I say to myself, 'I have to be
fine for her.' I think you must be my sort, Cherry, if you can do that.
Love was meant not to make people perfect, but to make them believe
always in the best. If you do that for me, Cherry----.”
She put her hands before her eyes and slipped back against the cushions,
as though she had become very tired. He stole down the punt noiselessly
and knelt beside her.
“Don't you like to be loved, Cherry?”
She spoke, still with her eyes covered. “Of course I like to be loved.
Every girl likes to know that some man cares for her.”
“Then, why----?”
Her voice came wearily. “Because it would be selfish, when I don't
intend to marry you. But--but I wish I didn't have to keep away from
you.”
He leant forward and kissed her cool cheek. “Then don't keep away from
me.”
“You mustn't kiss me, Peter. If only you wouldn't kiss me directly we're
alone----. Why do you?”
Why did he? That she could ask such a question told him so much. She was
like a beautiful statue; he could stir no life in her.
“Everybody's done it,” he said simply; “everybody since the world began.
You can't help it when you love anybody.”
She withdrew her hand from her eyes and looked at him wonderingly. How
quickly she could change from sad to gay! All of a sudden, from seeming
listless and spent, she had become radiant and virile. Her face was
tender and wore an amused expression. She stooped toward him and touched
him. “Still a little boy! For the first time I feel older than you--so
much older. What good times you and I could have if only we didn't think
ahead.”
He slipped his arm about her. “Dear little Cherry, you want to be loved,
but you won't believe that I'm your man. You won't let yourself love
me--that's all that's the matter. When I kiss you you turn your face
away, as if you were only enduring me.”
She thrust her face forward with sweet demureness. “Try again.--I didn't
turn away then.--You're so persistent, Peter. No, that's'enough.”
He pushed out from the rushes. The sun was tumbling into bed, spreading
his gold hair on the pillow and dragging his scarlet bed-clothes over
him. The river was dull as tarnished silver, but it flared crimson
where, in its windings, the west smote it.
“And to-morrow, Cherry?”
“To-morrow! Does it ever come? I'm leaving to-night. I promised you
to-day; you've had it.”
“But I want to-morrow as well.”
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