Domestic fiction; Family -- England -- Midlands -- Fiction; Midlands (England) -- Fiction
And by the highest good of the greatest number is chiefly meant the
material prosperity of all classes. Skrebensky did not really care
about his own material prosperity. If he had been penniless—well, he
would have taken his chances. Therefore how could he find his highest
good in giving up his life for the material prosperity of everybody
else! What he considered an unimportant thing for himself he could not
think worthy of every sacrifice on behalf of other people. And that
which he would consider of the deepest importance to himself as an
individual—oh, he said, you mustn’t consider the community from that
standpoint. No—no—we know what the community wants; it wants something
solid, it wants good wages, equal opportunities, good conditions of
living, that’s what the community wants. It doesn’t want anything
subtle or difficult. Duty is very plain—keep in mind the material, the
immediate welfare of every man, that’s all.
So there came over Skrebensky a sort of nullity, which more and more
terrified Ursula. She felt there was something hopeless which she had
to submit to. She felt a great sense of disaster impending. Day after
day was made inert with a sense of disaster. She became morbidly
sensitive, depressed, apprehensive. It was anguish to her when she saw
one rook slowly flapping in the sky. That was a sign of ill-omen. And
the foreboding became so black and so powerful in her, that she was
almost extinguished.
Yet what was the matter? At the worst he was only going away. Why did
she mind, what was it she feared? She did not know. Only she had a
black dread possessing her. When she went at night and saw the big,
flashing stars they seemed terrible, by day she was always expecting
some charge to be made against her.
He wrote in March to say that he was going to South Africa in a short
time, but before he went, he would snatch a day at the Marsh.
As if in a painful dream, she waited suspended, unresolved. She did not
know, she could not understand. Only she felt that all the threads of
her fate were being held taut, in suspense. She only wept sometimes as
she went about, saying blindly:
“I am so fond of him, I am so fond of him.”
He came. But why did he come? She looked at him for a sign. He gave no
sign. He did not even kiss her. He behaved as if he were an affable,
usual acquaintance. This was superficial, but what did it hide? She
waited for him, she wanted him to make some sign.
So the whole of the day they wavered and avoided contact, until
evening. Then, laughing, saying he would be back in six months’ time
and would tell them all about it, he shook hands with her mother and
took his leave.
Ursula accompanied him into the lane. The night was windy, the yew
trees seethed and hissed and vibrated. The wind seemed to rush about
among the chimneys and the church-tower. It was dark.
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