So she spent other days and long, wakeful nights. And since it seemed
impossible to bring her faith to life again just as it had been, with
the glamor of romance and the sweetness of pity and the strength of her
own innocence to make it a beautiful faith indeed, she used all her
innocence and all her pity and a little of romance and created
something even sweeter than her untried faith had been. She had a new
element to strengthen it. She knew that she loved Ward; she had
learned that from the hurt it had given her to lose her faith in him.
That was the record of the inner Billy Louise which no one ever saw.
The Billy Louise which her little world knew went her way unchanged,
except in small details that escaped the notice of those nearest her.
A look in her eyes, for one thing; a hurt, questioning look that was
sometimes rebellious as well; a droop of her mouth, also, when she was
off her guard; a sad, tired little droop that told of the weight of
responsibility and worry she was carrying.
Ward observed both, the minute he saw her on the trail. He had come
across country on the chance that she might be riding out that way, and
he had come upon her unawares while she and Blue were staring out over
the desert from the height they had attained in the hills.
"'Lo, Bill!" he said, when he was quite close, and held himself ready
to meet whatever mood she might present.
She turned her head quickly and looked at him, and the hurt look was
still in her eyes, the droop still showed at her lips. And Ward knew
they had been there before she saw him.
"Wha's molla, Bill?" he asked, in the tone that was calculated to
invite an unburdening of her troubles.
"Ob, nothing in particular. Mommie's been awfully sick, and I'm always
worried when I'm away from the ranch, for fear she'll have another
spell while I'm gone. The doctor said she might have, any time. Were
you headed for our place? If you are, come on; I was just starting
back. I don't dare be away any longer." If that were a real
unburdening, Ward was an unreasonable young man. Billy Louise looked
at him again, and this time her eyes were clear and friendly.
Ward was not satisfied, for all the surface seemed smooth enough. He
was too sensitive not to feel a difference, and he was too innocent of
any wrongdoing or thinking to guess what was the matter. Guilt is a
good barometer of personal atmosphere, and Ward had none of it. The
worst of him she had known for more than a year; he had told her
himself, and she had healed the hurt--almost--of the past by her firm
belief in him and by her friendship. Could you expect Ward to guess
that she had seen her faith in him die a violent death no longer than
two weeks ago? Such a possibility never occurred to him.
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