“You don’t; you know nothing of love, neither you nor any of us. I
don’t know how many women have sworn that they love me; they do because
I am a Prince, because I am jewelry, good dinners, and what not.
(Boulevard Haussmann, you fool! I have told you twice; and make those
pigs of horses travel faster—we are not a dung cart.) Yes, I am all
that, and they love me. De Nani, for instance, is a pattern of truth
and friendship, as we know it. I have never seen our world before;
Célestin has lit it for me. My mother paints; good God! my father
painted; he wore stays.”
“I, too, have worn stays,” declared Gaillard—“three years ago, when I
was very young and foolish. I was then twenty-two. I discarded them
because they were such a trouble to lace. I have even painted. What
will you have? Youth must expend itself; but believe me, Toto, our
world is not a bad world beneath the paint.”
“I tell you it is a vile world.”
“Well, perhaps it is, in parts. De Nani, for instance; beware of that
old man, Toto. He is the type of excess. An old man drunk and a drunken
old man are two different people. De Nani is a habitual drunkard; I
can read it in his eye. He is more dangerous than a cartful of women.
Still, despite the fact of De Nani and a thousand like him, I have a
childish faith in the world. I believe in humanity, or what I can see
of it through the misery and mystery of life. I believe in flowers, I
believe in trees. Have you read my ‘Rose Worship’? _Mon Dieu!_ what was
that? Only a dog we have run over. Animals, too, are part of my creed.
I am thinking of having a book of my belief published, with colored
plates. It would be the bible of childhood. Flowers, beasts, birds,
and insects would be as the four Apostles. I was saved from atheism
by a butterfly. It flew into my rooms in the Rue de Turbigo one day
last August. Everyone was at the seaside; I was alone in Paris. De
Brie had refused to advance me the money for a trip to Normandy. You,
Toto, were at Trouville. The day was sultry, and, to add to my pain,
a barrel-organ played in the street outside. Mme. Plon brought me a
letter. It was a draft from my sister for five hundred francs. As I
cast my eyes over it, a white butterfly flew in through my window,
thrice around the room, and out again. It was the voice of the Unseen,
saying ‘I am here.’ Yes, I believe—I believe in your Célestin. She is
all nature, and to be loved by such a woman is a benediction.”
La Princesse de Cammora’s carriage was at the door. She had just
returned from shopping, and tea was being served to her in the drawing
room.
Gaillard loved tea and Princesses,—even Princesses of fifty,—so he left
Toto to go upstairs and change, whilst he found his way to the drawing
room.
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