Alexandra, Empress, consort of Nicholas II, Emperor of Russia, 1872-1918
KERENSKY: “Can you explain why all orders from the Empress passed
through you? You had no official position ... it’s a most suspicious
occurrence.”
MYSELF: “We were practically isolated in the private apartments through
fear of contagion. Besides, what orders could the Empress give without
their being known to _you_?”
KERENSKY: “The servants are witnesses that all orders came through you.
Enquiries will reveal the truth ... if you are honest ... well and good.
If not ... that’s another matter.”
I looked at him. Kerensky seemed absolutely implacable, but I decided to
make one last appeal. He apparently loved flowers; this proved that, as
his senses could be appealed to, why not his heart?
“If _you_ had a child of your own, you’d understand my feelings,” I
said.
Kerensky surveyed me with that now familiar appraising scrutiny. “I
don’t think much of you as a mother,” he replied, smiling coldly,
“but--how old is your child?”
“He is seven.”
“Well, Madame, it so happens that I _have_ a child, and he, too, is
seven. I can decide nothing, but I am now going to a Council at which
Prince Lvoff will be present. _He_ must decide.”
I looked him straight in the eyes. This time he met my gaze fully and
squarely.
“I’m perfectly certain that you can do anything you like, without
consulting anyone,” I said. This tribute to his vanity appealed at once
to Kerensky. With most men vanity is the most powerful factor. Wound a
man’s vanity and he will never forgive you; pander to it, and he is your
friend for life. Kerensky was no exception: I had discovered the heel of
this Russian Achilles.
“You are quite right. Of course I can do what I like. Go back to your
room--I’ll send you my answer later in the evening.” He pressed an
electric bell on his table. The A.D.C. entered.
“Has Madame Dehn a bed in her room?” asked Kerensky. “If not, see that
one is placed there.”
“Oh, I don’t want a bed,” I interrupted. “Please let me go to my child.”
“I’ve already told you,” said Kerensky, “that I’ll let you know later.
But ... if I allow you to go home, you must give me your written promise
not to act in any way against us.”
The A.D.C. made a sign to the soldiers, Kerensky took no further notice
of me, and I was hurried out of the warm flower-scented apartment into
the icy corridor.
Black despair overcame me when I regained my room. Kerensky had been
non-committal; but I had hopes that my allusion to him as omnipotent
might have some favourable effect; so I sat in the corner nearest the
door, straining my ears to catch the sound of approaching footsteps.
Shortly after midnight my friend the A.D.C. made his appearance, and,
with a theatrical gesture, indicative of boundless space, he advanced,
saying:
“The Minister grants you permission to go home.”
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