And then his level mind turned and tried to see her point of view. He
must not be unjust. And he realized that if she thought such base things
of him she had been more or less right. But, even so, there was some
mystery beyond all this--some cruel and oppressing dark shadow in her
life.
And his thoughts went back to the night they had first met, and he
remembered then that her eyes had been full of hate--resentment and
hate--as though he, personally, had caused her some injury.
Francis Markrute was so very clever: what plan had he had in his head?
By what scorpion whip had he perhaps forced her to consent to his wishes
and become his--Tristram's--wife? And once more the disturbing
remembrance of Mimo returned, so that, when at last dawn came and he
went back to the hotel, tired out in body and soul, it would not let him
rest in his bed. His bed--in the next room his wife!
But one clear decision he had come to. He would treat her with cold
courtesy, and they would play the game. To part now, in a dramatic
manner, the next day after the wedding, was not in his sense of the
fitness of things, was not what was suitable or seemly for the Tancred
name.
And when he had left her Zara had stood quite still. Some not understood
astonishment caused all her passion to die down. For all the pitifully
cruel experiences of her life she was still very young--young and
ignorant of any but the vilest of men. Hitherto she had felt when they
were kind that it was for some gain, and if a woman relented a second
she would be sure to be trapped. For her self-respect and her soul's
sake she must go armed at all points. And after her hurling at him all
her scorn, instead of her husband turning round and perhaps beating her
(as, certainly, Ladislaus would have done), he had answered with dignity
and gone out of the room.
And she remembered her father's cold mien. Perhaps there was something
else in the English--some other finer quality which she did not yet
understand.
The poor, beautiful creature was like some ill-treated animal ready to
bite to defend itself at the sight of a man.
It spoke highly for the strength and nobility of her character that,
whereas another and weaker woman would have become degraded by the
sorrows of such a life, she had remained pure as the snow, and as cold.
Her strong will and her pride had kept completely in check every
voluptuous instinct which must certainly have always lain dormant in
her. Every emotion towards man was frozen to ice.
There are some complete natures which only respond to the highest touch;
when the body and soul are evenly balanced they know all that is divine
of human love. It is those warped in either of the component parts who
bring sorrow--and lust.
The perfect woman gives willingly of herself, body and soul, to the _one
man_ she loves.
But of all these things Zara was ignorant. She only knew she was
exhausted, and she crept wearily to bed.
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