The Rector got up well pleased. The alacrity with which he left the
room, however, did not correspond with the horror-stricken and helpless
expression of his face, when, after walking very smartly all round the
Rectory garden, he paused with his hand on the gate, doubtful whether to
retreat into his study, or boldly to face that world which was plotting
against him. The question was a profoundly serious one to Mr Proctor. He
did not feel by any means sure that he was a free agent, or could assert
the ordinary rights of an Englishman, in this most unexpected dilemma.
How could he tell how much or how little was necessary to prove that a
man had "committed himself"? For anything he could tell, somebody might
be calculating upon him as her lover, and settling his future life for
him. The Rector was not vain--he did not think himself an Adonis; he
did not understand anything about the matter, which indeed was beneath
the consideration of a Fellow of All-Souls. But have not women been
incomprehensible since ever there was in this world a pen with sufficient
command of words to call them so? And is it not certain that, whether
it may be to their advantage or disadvantage, every soul of them is
plotting to marry somebody? Mr Proctor recalled in dim but frightful
reminiscences stories which had dropped upon his ear at various times
of his life. Never was there a man, however ugly, disagreeable, or
penniless, but he could tell of a narrow escape he had, some time
or other. The Rector recollected and trembled. No woman was ever
so dismayed by the persecutions of a lover, as was this helpless
middle-aged gentleman under the conviction that Lucy Wodehouse meant
to marry him. The remembrance of the curate of St Roque's gave him no
comfort: her sweet youth, so totally unlike his sober age, did not
strike him as unfavourable to her pursuit of him. Who could fathom
the motives of a woman? His mother was wise, and knew the world, and
understood what such creatures meant. No doubt it was entirely the
case--a dreadful certainty--and what was he to do?
At the bottom of all this fright and perplexity must it be owned that
the Rector had a guilty consciousness within himself, that if Lucy drove
the matter to extremities, he was not so sure of his own powers of
resistance as he ought to be? She might marry him before he knew what
he was about; and in such a case the Rector could not have taken his
oath at his own private confessional that he would have been so deeply
miserable as the circumstances might infer. No wonder he was alarmed at
the position in which he found himself; nobody could predict how it
might end.
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